Impossible love

Bankrupt

Another night another sneak out
"Hey" she jogged toward me
"Hey" I couldn't help it but chuckle, i've missed so many chances by being scared of how i felt toward her and I don't want to anymore so i hugged her making her laugh softly as she hugged me back "how are you?" She lean back a bit while keeping her arms around my neck as w hide behind the tree
"I'm good" she look down a bit, i left her chin up "and you?" She said looking at me
"I'm good too" she looked a bit worried or something "what is it" i pulled her soft hair behind her ear, her cheeks start to become pinkish
"Mom and uncle Brian..." she whisper
"What about them?"
"They love each other" i waited for her to continue, she looked at me "why you don't look surprised?"  I gave it a though
"Well... i kinda figured it out. I mean he've been in her life for so long and he's taking care of you like his daughter plus he came all the way from Texas with her" i nodded to myself "it's not hard to tell that he loved her, i mean i didn't see it coming at first but eventually i realized that they loved each other more than friends" she raised her eyebrow
"Are you telling me that I'm oblivious" i let out a laugh
"No. Not at all" i wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her closer "but you got used to their atmosphere for too long that you wouldn't have guessed it" her hands lower to my chest as she look down "so what else is on your mind" she pressed her lips together
"Mom hired Dylan as my lawyer" i tensed a bit feeling angry and fire start to flare in my chest
"Have you seen him?" She nodded slowly as she study my face, i took a deep breath she's my wife and I can't see her or hang around her but that stupid lawyer got the field all to himself "have he tried to hit on you" she giggle making me raise an eyebrow at her
"I'm sorry, but you look cute when you're jealous"
"What you said is true right? About him becoming your lawyer?" I didn't want her to joke about it now
"Yea" she cleared her throat then smile
"I'm gonna punch him" they fire burned more
"Justin" she pulled my t-shirt as she let out a breath
"There's a lot of lawyers why him?"
"My mom only know him and" she held my arm "you're holding me too tight, it hurt" she look down, i release her from my arms
"I'm sorry but he's irritating me"
"I know" she held my hands "but what can i do, you know our moms" i sigh and look at her as i licked my lips, she held my cheeks "and Justin" she looked into my eyes
"Hm" i hummed
"I love you" if that didn't make me the happiest boy on earth I don't know what would
"I love you too" i kissed her soft hands, she smiled
"I can't stay too long so, i'll see you tomorrow?" I nodded
"I'll see you tomorrow"
"Alright" she whisper
"Goodnight"
"Goodnight" she smile as she walked back to the restaurant, I don't know why i get this feeling like i wanna run and grab her and take her with me, i felt the cold breeze blowing now that she's not by my side, she gave me a look and a soft smile before she goes into the restaurant, i couldn't stop myself but i walked toward her as she blinked confuse, i pulled her in a hug getting my hands beneath her cardigan as warmth consume me and her flowery scent filled my lungs
"I don't wanna be away from you anymore" i whisper as she held me closer making me close my eyes
"Me too" it took a moment for her to lean back a bit "i wanna hug you more but it's too risky here" i nodded
"Go on" i slowly let her go, she sigh
"Come" she grabbed my hand in hers
"Wha-"
"What you don't want to stay" she whisper, i held her hand as my heart race
"I do" she smile
"Just a sleepover. Nothing more" she assured
"Alright" i smile and she guide me inside making sure no one's around, once we reached her room she shut the door and now i got nervous, her room was cool, i've never been up here though... a small cozy bedroom, off-white walls and a small white wooden shelf's just beneath the window filled with books, comics and mangas as i guess cause they had different type of writings and there was pictures of the characters on the books, on top of the shelf a lavender was on the vas near it a water pot for the plant as the chiffon curtain length was just perfect not to tuck behind the shelf and enough to not be short
"You okay" i looked at her and nodded with a smile
"Yea. It's just the first time i come up here so i was looking around" she smile shyly "i like your room"
"Thanks" i held her hand
"Let's lay down" she nodded and let me guide her to her bed, despite that it's for a person and half it's better to be close
"Are you comfortable in your pants i mean i could get you something" she said
"I'm fine" luckily I didn't wear jeans today "your cardigan"
"I'm fine" she smile
"I have no clue what your mom would do in the morning but i probably should leave before she comes" She nodded but pressed on my hand
"Yea" i pulled the duvet cover and went under it then look at her as she got under the cover with me, i lay down as i pulled her on my chest and she cuddle closer after she pulled back her hair, i smile and start playing with it "shouldn't we feel awkward?"
"Why it's not our first time laying down"
"Right"
"Are you feeling awkward?" She shook her head
"No. I feel comfortable" she whisper holding into my shirt "very" she buried her face on my neck and inhale making me wonder if i smell nice i did shower before i came here "i love your scent" i pulled her closer and message her scalp
"I love your scent too" i kissed her head then peek down but she was already asleep, fast sleeper i see.
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After i sneak out from Selena's arms i kissed her forehead and cover her so she don't get cold, luckily she didn't wake up.
I turn around to see her mom crossing her arms and glaring at me, i gasps and jump as my heart drop, she node for me to follow her so i did and down the stairs we went
"What are you doing here? No, what did you do to her?" She could stab me just from her look now i get where Selena got these stabby look, i swallow hard
"We only slept" I didn't feel comfortable it's like i walked into an investigation room "nothing more" i cleared it for her, it's not like it's wrong if we did anything we're married, she took a deep breath while her eyes closed like she's trying to calm down and when she opened her eyes i could tell how hard she tried to not snap at me
"Which part of stay away from her you don't get it"
"She's my wife" she let out a laugh
"Oh now you remember"
"I know. I've hurt her too much and I've never meant to. I was scared and i panicked and I'm sorry"
"You're sorry, huh" she didn't look convinced
"I'll make it up to her. I'll set things right from now on. I love her i really do" i looked into her eyes "please don't take her away from me"
"You should've though of it long before you play with her. I didn't get pregnant 9 months and raise her for 24 years just so you can walk all over her feelings-"
"Please... I know that you can't trust me after all what i did"
"Get out. And don't let me see you around her. You'll hurt her more this way" i sigh thinking of something to say that will make her let me see her, she walked into the kitchen and didn't take long to walk out with a frying pan in her hand making me swallow hard is she- she walked closer, i really need to get out before she hit me
"Look" i started
"Get. Out. Now" she hissed through her teeth
"If that will make you forgive me-"
"Out. now!" and with that i walked out letting out a heavy sigh, the door behind me was locked.
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"I'm not well" mom was whining making my heart sink so i rush to the house and they stood outside "oh Justin" she had her sunglasses on her head while her eyes looked puffed, six suitcases were out
"Mom, are you alright?" I held her hand and she held on it
"Oh baby, you should pack the important things quickly"
"Why? Where are we going?" I looked at her but she put her hand on her eyes as if she's stressed out, what's going on
"We're bankrupt, son"
"W-what" i tried to calm myself and swallow the news "how
"I got greedy and took a loan to buy more lands" dad came out looking all sad, I've never saw him sad i mean he never looked like he's sad
"Idiot" mom shout as she hit him but dad look away and sigh
"Now i have to sell everything we have" he look at me "gather what you really need. I called a taxi to move to our new home" I don't know what to say it feels like this is a dream, maybe if i went with the wave i'll wake up, yea let's do that.
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I called Jason and escaped the place dad called home, it's almost like a box 1 level only with 3 bedrooms, three toilets and small living room with a used furnitures, the kitchen was small and where was the dinning table? The scent here like a dumb cement...Mom was breaking down cursing dad while crying, mother teresa was checking the place, hazel, paul and Edward left to god knows where, we can't keep them anymore we don't have the place to nor the money anymore, this is not a dream because if it were I'd definitely wake up by now. I don't mean to be ungrateful at least we have a roof on our head but when dad explain how we have to spend money so careful from now on, even with bread and stuff it was difficult plus i have to work as anything because the company is not ours anymore, mom and mother teresa will have to work too and dad was telling me to go and fish with him to earn money... I've never knew life could be this cruel just the other day i was buying diamond rings one mom bought it and the other i did and now we can't afford as much as a bread? I can't comprehend it so i had to breath for a bit, I'm too embarrassed to see Chaz and Ryan... Selena.
With that i went to Selena's restaurant and saw her serving dishes to some customers while smiling and when she saw me she blinked as if she's not believing it, i wave and she look behind her then she rushed toward me
"Justin, what are you doing here" i pressed my lips together
"I really needed someone..." i whisper making her narrow her eyes but it's not as if she's angry but as if she's worried
"Wait, i'll come" she jogged back and i scratched the back of my neck, i looked away and rubbed out my face "c'mon" she walked ahead as i followed, once we were out of sight she looked at me "what's it?" Now worries cover her face
"We went bankrupt" i sigh "i.." i node my shoulders "i don't know how to feel. It feels unreal" she held my hands
"You'll survive" she looked at me "you'll manage"
"We can't afford much, barely bread"
"What happened. I mean how come? You've lost everything"
"Everything. I still can't process anything, i mean just few days ago we were fine and in the company and dad said nothing" she took a deep breath then let it out "now we moved to a different place" I couldn't say home, it's far way off for me now, it feels strange to me, i swallowed hard "The company" the realization hit me "we could still have it"
"Let's go and check" she gave me a warm smile, I couldn't help but smile, i nodded.
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"Uh Selena.." i whisper "hit me" she held my arm
"Justin" she sigh "it's true. They even changed the name"
"It's a joke right? Of course. Someone will come out and say say hi to the camera it's a prank!"
"Hi" okay hearing this voice is nowhere near prank or fun to me, i looked to confirm the idiot existence, Dylan "i'm sorry about what happened to your father" if I didn't know him i'd say he's sincere
"Oh i'm sure you're" i was gonna move forward but Selena held my arm tighter
"Justin" she said under her breath "let's go. We know now the truth" i gave him a look but he looked at Selena making me want to punch him, the hell he's looking at i'm the one who's speaking here
"Come" i put my arm around her shoulder and walked away with her, i looked behind us to make sure that he's not eyeing my wife anymore but lucky him he's not even standing there anymore
"Justin" she put her arm around me "i think you should work. To help your family" she was looking at me making me sigh
"I don't know. I mean i only finished high school and didn't finish college, i mean I didn't like any major" i pressed my lips together "i barely worked in the company, as much as dad scolded me I didn't listen. I didn't knew i'll need to actually work to make a living" i dropped my arm from her "are you gonna leave me? I mean i'm broke and i have nothing" she narrowed her eyes
"What?" Her voice came out louder in shock "what are you talking about? Did i marry you for your wealth?"
"Then why did you marry me?" She rolled her eyes and let me go
"I told you before i'm not a gold digger. Look we will find a job for you, your family needs you, you should stay strong" she kissed my cheek ever so softly making me feel the sparks everywhere, I couldn't stop smiling like an idiot now
"Do you pity me?" She sigh
"Look if you tried to laze around i'll be back to hitting you, are we clear now" i nodded "good" she smile and entangled her arm around my arm
"Wanna see the... the" i tried to say
"Your new home" she looked at me, i node my shoulder
"I want you to know where i live now" she nodded her head
"Yea sure"
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When we reached there i was embarrassed
"You know let's return"
"Justin, stop it" she frown "i wanna know where my husband lives now" I couldn't help it
"Your husband" she nodded "you mean me" she roll her eyes and chuckle
"Now tell me" i pointed at the house behind her, she turn around "oh we reached to it" she didn't sounded surprised "it looks nice"
"Don't comfort me"
"I'm not. I mean it, plus it has a small cute garden plus my house is nearby almost in the same neighbor which means you could pass by anytime now without troubles" she was smiling "you could invite me sometimes, we will find a job for you to settle" sometimes i wonder if it's just her there's this aura around her she's so positive and she spread it onto anyone near her, she makes me thinks that this situation is not bad, i'm grateful for her existence, grateful for her in my life "what is it?" She let out smile
"What?" I frown my eyebrows
"You're looking at me and smiling" she chuckle as her cheeks starts to rose "is there something on my face?" I smile wilder and cube her face and kissed her forehead as i closed my eyes feeling her warmth, she held my arms and let out a breath as if she's smiling, I couldn't help but placed my forehead on hers "you okay?" She whisper making me open my eyes to look into her eyes, i nodded gently
"Yea. Thank you" she frown
"I did nothing" she lean back "you can go in and check on your mom. She probably needs you" i nodded
"Alright" she's right. I can't kiss her here mom might be around she's too shaken by this situation so her mood is probably off, plus I can't make her stay longer her mom will gets angry "bye"
"Bye" she watched me open the shoulder length entrance gate and closed it "i love you" i felt my heart skip a beat
"I love you too" she smile wilder
"I'll be around. Pass by if you needed me"
"I'll" i assured her as she walked away while waving.
When i went in mother teresa welcomed me
"How's mom"
"She's not too good. She start hallucinating that she's in a bigger house with a bigger swimming pool"
"What?" She shook her head
"The doctor said that's because of the shock. She needs time and support to accept the truth" i was gonna walk in but she held my arm "Ashley and her mom are in there with her. Just to let you know" i swallow hard, what a timing thank god I didn't bring Selena in, i took a deep breath then let it out and walk in, they were setting on the table mom was giving them some food, she looked at me and smile
"Oh my big boy is here!" She almost sing "come and set with us. How do you think of the palace" palace? Oh the hallucination
"Should i play a long?" I whisper to mother teresa
"Yea, better" she whisper back
"Uh yea" i smile at mom
"You should look out of your room balcony it has such a beautiful view, trees and ocean" i looked at Ashley who looked nervous but smiled, i could see the hint of pity in her eyes and her mom's eyes, i hate it
"I'll go to look at that view then" I couldn't stay here any longer
"Justin" Ashley stood up quickly "i'll come along" she walked closer and cube my face "are you okay?" I slide her hands off "don't worry. Dad's money will be enough for all of us" see that's the pity, that's i'm gonna help you out the situation not help you in the situation, like being poor is wrong, now i realized more than ever that Selena's better than a lot of girls i've dated before
"Your dad money will be enough for all of us?" I let out a laugh "how come, huh? What's wrong with what we have?" I glared at her "if you don't like it go on to your villa" i walked away and went to my room as i closed the door behind me wanting to shut everything out.