Rekindle // D.S.

THIRTY-TWO

"what would it take"

"um, I don't know" I shrugged "I just don't wanna talk about it"

"y/n, will you mature up" Aubrey said, sitting down next to me on her couch "and at least tell me why"

I didn't say anything so she spoke again "don't tell me you don't have a reason. that's leading someone on y/n" Aubrey sighed "I won't tell him" Aubrey said "I also won't tell Bradly if it makes you feel better"

I nodded my head, agreeing to tell her my reasons for not even trying to reconnect with Daniel "let's get this straight, we talk" I said "but not often because I always make plans to avoid him" I nervously laugh "okay, maybe not to avoid him" I defended "it just so happens to"

"I-I don't know how he took the breakup" I said "my only impression was when he picked up some stuff and he looked sad" I softly laughed, even though it wasn't funny "I was crying that whole day"

"And that's okay, for an almost three year relationship there is definitely going to be some heartbreak" Aubrey reassured

"I just, I don't want to go in the hole I went through" I admitted "November was quite rough for me. I didn't talk to any of my family. I stepped away from my school friends, social media. There was actually a point where my mindset didn't want to do social media" I said "my grades were getting lower, I had teachers ask me and even they knew because him and I would always be around each other" I explained "and then we weren't"

"I started to pick myself up around Christmas time. I talked to my family and my grades had gotten better" I said "enough to pass" I detailed "but I was never fully back until finals" I said "and even then I wasn't, because my mind was taken over by the stress of finals, senior year finals"

"I would see him everyday, before school, during school, after school, on the weekends" I recalled "we were really best friends and we always had been there for each other" I explained "but after our breakup" I said "high school wasn't the same" I explained "and that being said, senior year was probably my worse year of high school" I admitted "academically and socially"

"So you know why" Aubrey said "you know why you don't want to let him in your life again" she added, and then she sighed "you should tell him that"

"what? did you not hear me?" I questioned "if I tell him that and it doesn't go well that means we wouldn't be friends" I said "we were best friends" I breathed out "I'd at least like to keep some part"

"I know, but he has been wanting an explanation" Aubrey said "from what you have brought up" she added "it's selfish" she stated "not telling him is selfish"

"how?" I asked "it's not like I'm not sharing a whole pack of oreos" I said

"in a way" she lightly giggled "replace your reasons with the oreos, for now" Aubrey said "he's been asking you for oreos but you're keeping them to yourself" she explained

"but what if if bought the oreos?" I asked

"that's not apart of this" she huffed

"I feel like we could be friends tho" I said "and we would still be in contact" I smiled "we would still talk to each other"

She sighed before talking "all I'm saying is if you asked someone for oreos and they clearly had a full bag in their hand, you would expect at least one" Aubrey said