I always feel the craving, the constant need to be high. I want to feel numb, I wanted to feel nothing. I walk over to my stash and grab 4 Vicodin and 2 Xanax. I don't even need water to take them now. I grab rubber bands, a syringe, a needle, and head into the bathroom.
I wake up on my bathroom floor with my head in someone's lap. I slowly get up so I can get into a sitting position while I wait for the lectures I know are coming.
"WHAT THE FUCK OLIVIA?!"
"Zach, yelling isn't going to help."
"SHE COULD HAVE OVERDOSED! AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE CUTS ON HER ARMS!"
"Zach I'm fine, I-"
"No Olivia, your not fine! Your taking pills and using heroin, HEROIN OLIVIA!"
"Would you keep your voice down please?" I look at Justin with pleading eyes, silently begging him to do something.
"Why? Why are you doing it?"
"Be...because I don't want to feel anything ok? I don't want to be aware of anything because if I am that means I think about it! I love to feel the "high" sensation, it feels like my body is weightless floating in the air."
"What are you trying to avoid? What aren't you telling me, Olivia?"
"I-I...nothing.....it's nothing."
"Clearly it's not nothing Olivia! So what is it?"
"Liv just tell us what's going on please!"
"Br...Bryce, he ummm...he raped me. I didn't remember it right away but I was seeing bits and pieces of things I didn't remember happening. But yesterday it all just came flooding back...everything that happened to me that night." My voice is cracking and the tears are pouring down my face. Zach pulls me into his arms and holds me tight. I needed it his embrace, I needed Zach in my life because without him I would be lost. But I couldn't help but wish I was in his arms and not Zach's. I hated the thought because he was my enemy, I mean he hates me doesn't he? Zach and I go for a walk and spend some time together just the two of us.(Just pretend that it's Olivia and Zach)
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FanfictionOlivia Dempsey, Zach's younger sister by 10 months. Hannah Baker was one of Olivia's close friends, at least as close as you could get to Hannah. But then Hannah made the decision to end her life, which broke the hearts of her family and friends. Le...