LOVE, LUST or HATE

𝔉𝔦𝔳𝔢. (𝟝)

"Make allowance for each other's faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others."
- Colossians 3:13 (NLT)

𝐓𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐧'𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯
𝐓𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 20𝐭𝐡 𝐃𝐞𝐜𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫
7:00pm

I looked in the mirror one last time. Taking in everything. From my black and white checkered two piece, that I'm wearing, to my new, fresh set of nails, to deeping the fact God has kept me alive for eighteen whole years. Sigh. I'm happy I'm leaving all the negativity in the past.

"OI whoever is in here can you hurry the fuck up. People want to use this room." The sound of some one banging on the door and shouting interrupts my thoughts. Rachel yeah... I hate her.

I walk out the room to be met with some boy that I've never seen before and a girl, who's wearing basically nothing. I hate being around people I've never met. And now I'm in an apartment with so many people I have never met. I feel sorry for Rachel though. The apartment she got is only have two bedrooms. I locked mine because as soon as I realised how many people were coming. It's not me that's going to sleep on the same bed that people had sexual intercourse in. Absolutely not.

As I walk, I bump into someone. I don't even look up to see who it is but simply say a little sorry and go about my day. What I find very funny is that, nearly all the people doesn't even know it's my birthday. They know it's someones but they don't know it's mine.

Not surprised though. People often tend to only come to parties for two reasons. To find someone to have sex with, or multiple people to have sex with. And for free food. And if boys don't wanna have sex, they'll come to 'secure a whine' or whatever they say and to get free head. No one actually cares about who's birthday it is. Or anything like that. Which is why, I wanted something small. Who wants to be somewhere, with a bunch of people that don't care about you, on your birthday? Not me.

I bump into someone again. This place is too crowded. Either that or I really should start looking where I'm going. "look where you're going b."

"Sorry." Was all I said, and continued walking. I just want to sit down with my few friends, eat and chill. That didn't happen.

"ahhh birthday girll." Rachel slurred as she came up to me.

"yo." I said dryly. I don't even want to seem or look ungrateful because I'm not. I'm grateful that she went through all this effort to put a smile on my face, it was a nice idea but just not for me. I'm just annoyed because she didn't take into consideration what I said I wanted.

"What's wrong with you b?" She asked. This girl drunk as hell. She can't even stand still for at least one minute.

"Nothing. How much alcohol have you had?" I chuckled.

"I don't know, and I don't care."

"Okay baddie, take it easy though."

She nodded in response. "AH THIS IS MY SONGG!" She screamed as 3 headed goat started playing.

Someone remind me why I'm friends with this child please.

I looked around and just saw everyone having fun, smiling and enjoying their selfs. I can't even see my actual friends man. I went to my room, well the room I claimed anyways and just sat one the bed. I wanna sleep man.