LOVE, LUST or HATE

𝔈𝔩𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔫. (𝟙𝟙)

"My child, if sinners entice you, turn your back on them."
- Proverbs 1:10 (NLT)

𝐓𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐧'𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯
𝐓𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 29𝐭𝐡 𝐉𝐚𝐧𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐲 2021
17:45

Pure stress. That's all I can say. I've been stressing since new years. I haven't seen or heard from Rachel since that phone call. That's been making me go mad, because I know that at times Joshua can do dumb shit. That's why he's in jail. He decided to be dumb. No one sent him to go do whatever he did. I heard he shot someone, but I don't know if that's just a rumour it if it's true. When I go try visit him, he never comes out his cell, and when he does he just airs me. I don't know why he's mad. I didn't do anything to him, but I was told to stop stressing my self out. And that's exactly what I'm going to do. Imma focus on me, myself and I.

"What you thinking about bae." Damari asked, looking at me with a worried facial expression. He's not my boyfriend, he's just been there for me.

Josiah hasn't spoke to me a lot these past few weeks too. After I told him about the phone call between me and Rachel, he came over. We was calm then, but like two weeks ago, he just started moving different. I mean, I still say hi and check up on him but he just gives dead replies. It's whatever though, I'm not gonna kill myself to get him to talk to me.

"Bro you good?" Damari laughed a little.

I snapped out my thoughts and answered with a quick, "yeah."

"you're not. I called you bro and you didn't do anything. Talk to me baby."

"Relax. I'm okay, just tired." He's being weird today. I'm not gonna deny that I have feelings for him, but he's never called me 'bae' or 'baby'. It feels weird.

"What do you mean relax? Don't piss me off fam." He said in a harsh tone.

I lowered my head, not wanting to look at him and replied with, "Sorry."

"Nah don't do that. Bare trynna make me feel bad." He stopped rubbing my feet and looked at me.

"What?"

"You know how man feels about you, let me cuff you." I hate boys from south east. What is 'let me cuff you.' Are you 16? Big big 20 year old on about 'cuff you'. Grow up.

"loool. Not going to lie, I'm not trying to get into a relationship for now." To be honest, I just don't think he's good for me and I'm not going to get into a relationship because someone else wants to.

"The fuck does that mean. You're talking to someone init. That Josiah yute?"

I had to laugh. Me and Josiah? Josiah and I? Ew, that's like me dating my brother.

Damari frowned at me in confusion. "Why you laughing? You're gonna piss man off."

"Loool, sorry. Me and Josiah could never be together. That's my brother. And plus, he's not even talking to me right now lol." I pictured us together, and laughed again. That would be hilarious, no cap.

"Yeah whatever. So why can't man cuff you?"

"I don't know, it's just you seem like someone that would break my heart, or like just try have sex with me or something." I replied.

"don't fucking kill me. If I wanted to jeet, I would've by now." This is why I don't wanna mess with him lol. 'Jeet'. If he wanted to 'jeet' he still wouldn't have. I don't know who gassed him.

"lol okay big man." I chuckled.

"I was only joking man. You're so emotional and serious. It's not attractive you know." 

Why does he think I care what's attractive or not. I don't even want to attract people lol. "I don't care lol."

He kissed his teeth then came towards me more. "I'm gonna cut now." He hugged me, I didn't hug him back though. "Just so you know, you're mine yeah." He whispered in my ear. I don't know what he was trying to attempt but it wasn't working. I don't want to be with him.

Sorry? I'm what? LOOOOOOL. Anyways...

"Can you move, the doors right there. You can go now." I pushed him off me. He's so annoying. When I met him, he was calm. He helped me and was there for me. Now, he's just annoying. I told him I don't anything more than a friendship but he isn't respecting that. Some weird guy.

He kissed his teeth. "Pattern bro."

I just laughed in response and opened my bedroom door for him.

He screwed me, then left. I'm not gonna entertain him.

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𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐞𝐥 '𝐉𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐚𝐡' 𝐏𝐨𝐯
𝐒𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲
19:00

"What's your problem? What is there another girl?" Monique shouted lowly, starting to get angry.

"Bake. You're not even my girl." I regretted saying that as soon as I said it. I mean she isn't my girl, we're just talking. I met her awhile ago but we didn't talk like that. On new years eve we linked and yeah. She gave me head and now she thinks we're in a relationship.

"It's like that yeah? Cool. When you want your dick sucked, don't come to me." She said then began leaving.

I shrugged, not caring at all and went back to playing COD.

"FUCK YOU! You're just gonna let me leave like that? I hate you so much fam." She started screaming. Bro. This is not needed. Bare screaming and shouting because I don't want to wife you? Weirdo.

"Can you relax? Why would I make you mine? Bro you gave me head so quickly, you've barely spoke to me and you're getting mad because I won't wife you. You're a sket. Furthermore, get the fuck out my yard." I'm not normally this rude to females, but fam, this bitch is so fucking annoying. I told her what is was from the beginning and yet, here she is. Pissing me off and crying unnecessarily.

She didn't even look at me. Just replied with a simple, "Cool." And left.

I took my phone from my side table and went on snap. I started looking through peoples stories, nothing interesting as usual.

But someone's story caught my eye.

Tosin's.

It was a snap of her and some guy. Some unknown person. They were in her room, cuddled up with each other and the caption said 'mce 😂💕'

I'm not jealous lol, but it's like wow. She didn't tell me she had an 'mce'. I mean, she doesn't have to but still. We don't talk like that. Not my fault though. That Monique bitch wouldn't leave me alone and anytime I would try talk to Tosin, she would start moving mad. It's whatever though, I'll just pull up to her crib later I guess...

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Heyy guyss. It's been some time lol .

This is just a filler chapter by the way.

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