LOVE, LUST or HATE

𝔗𝔥𝔦𝔯𝔱𝔢𝔢𝔫. (𝟙𝟛)

"So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free."
- John 8:36 (NLT)

𝐑𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐥'𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯
𝐓𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 20𝐭𝐡 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡
17:00

I knocked on his door with a smile on my face. I've been coming here a lot these past few weeks. He opened the door with nothing on but shorts. I couldn't help but stare at his body. His abs were right there, staring at me. He chuckled. "You gonna come in or just stare?"

I looked up at him. His smile was so distracting. Nah, he alone, was a distraction. He made me forget about the whole world, about everyone. It was like he was the only one on my mind. When I'm around him, I'm at peace.

"Babes." He chuckled again.

"Shit sorry." I walked into his house and went straight up to his room.

He soon came in too. "You good?" He asked after giving me a small kiss.

"Yeah. My back is in so much pain though."

"Struggles of being pregnant init. When's your due date?" He cares more now. He knows he's the dad too. He's finally accepting it.

"June 26th." I groaned. I just want this baby to get here, and fast. This pregnancy is stressful.

"Dope, what you saying though, you trynna give me some head or what?" He smirked at me.

He's perfect but it seems like all he wants is head. He reminds me too much of Joshua and that's what I'm trying to get away from, but it's so difficult.

I sighed, "It's not everyday head. Like, let's get to know each other. All we ever did before, that thing happened, was have sex and now that's all that happens-"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" He shouted.

I jumped in shock. I knew he could get like this, it has happened many times, but still, each time I'm shocked. I kept quiet knowing when he gets like this he can kill me, plus I'm carrying a whole child. I don't want to lose him or her.

"Suck my dick bitch." He commanded.

With no hesitation, I got on my knees, with a slight struggle. I then pulled out his penis and began sucking. I enjoy giving slops, but sometimes I just want to be an actual couple that can talk about how they're feeling and their families and things like that. I barely talk to him because his dick is always in my mouth.

He knows what he's doing and how this makes me feel, but he doesn't care. I know he doesn't care, but I care. I love him. Even when he treats me like the dirt on the bottom of his shoes, I still love him. Some people call me dumb, but that won't stop me from being in love with him. He's the love of my life.

3 HOURS LATER.

He came back into the room. I felt him starring at me, though, I wanted to look at him and show affection to him. I ignored his whole presence. This whole act of his needs to stop. He's not bad like this, he's actually a good guy, but he keeps trying to be someone he's not.

"What, you're gonna ignore me, yeah?" He chuckled.

I ignored him. I just want the old him back. I want the person I fell in love with back. He was so kind. Before we even started fucking, he treated me like a princess. He was there for me more than anyone, even Joshua. He helped me when I felt like Joshua was using me for sex. Now it's like he's a whole different person. Like, my John is dead and this is an imposter.