Day 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest

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by The_Pics

by The_Pics

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

I don’t know whether this is like lovey dovey boyfriend girlfriend heartbreak or just heart aching stuff. I’m going with the second option cause

1. I’ve never had a boyfriend and

2. I have stuff to write about for the second option

Dear Person,

I cried until I couldn’t cry anymore and I had a headache. It felt as though my heart was physically breaking.

You’ve walked out on us a couple of times now. I know you’ll come back. You always do. But what happens if one day you don’t. What happens if you leave us?

You say some of the most hurtful things ever. I suck at not breaking down on the spot and when I hear you say this sort of stuff, I can’t take it anymore. I shake really badly and my head aches.

Seeing my siblings cry while you say this is always heart breaking. Seeing the look on their faces; Frightened, upset, lost. It breaks me. You leave. I have no idea where you’re going, or when you’ll be back.

One time you left at around lunch time and I assumed you’d be back before dinner time. 9pm that night, you still weren’t back. I worried myself sick thinking of all the things that could have possibly happened to you.

I didn’t sleep at all that night. I heard someone downstairs at around 2am in the morning. It was you. I pretended to be asleep, but I was crying so hard. Tears of happiness and sadness I guess. Happiness that you were back; Sadness remembering what had happened and why you’d left.

I don’t think you realise what an impact your actions and words have.

I’m scared. That one day you’ll walk out. And you won’t come back.

I love you so much, and to lose you would just shatter me to pieces.

Lots of love Becky xx