Day 11 - A Deceased person you wish you would talk to
Dear Nana,
You’re my great-grandmother. Mum called you Nana, so I guess it just stuck. I remember a lot about you.
You used to come and babysit me when Mum and Dad were at work. You introduced me to Hi-5, which I am so grateful for. I absolutely loved that show.
You were around a lot when I was a toddler.
After we moved, I didn’t get to see you very often. During that time, we got news that you had been moved to a retirement home. You just needed that little bit of help as you got older.
A few later, we moved back and you were still in the retirement home. We didn’t get to visit you very often cause of the distance between where we lived.
I loved visiting you.
I think it was a Thursday afternoon when we got the call.
“Nana’s dying.” Mum broke down in tears. I couldn’t believe the news. The next day we headed down to see you.
Mum broke down once again when we reached the retirement home. You were only 79. You weren't even that old. We spoke to the doctors at the nursing home. They told us that when Nana was younger she had had injections that contained gold. The gold had settled in her liver and was damaging it. I’m not really sure why we didn’t do surgery.
We ended up staying up at our grandmother’s place so we could see you. We would visit the nursing home each day.
I remember there was a period of about 3 or 4 days where you didn’t open your eyes. You refused to. That upset Mum so much.
I don’t remember how much longer after this that you died. I remembered getting the news. I guess I had seen it coming, so it wasn’t as much of an impact.
We had organised for you to be cremated. That’s what you had wanted. The funeral was organised.
I wasn’t exactly looking forward to the funeral, but more that I was going to be able to say goodbye to you.
I never got the chance. A personal matter happened that changed that.
I couldn’t believe that the person who had done the “thing” had done it. I hated the person who had done what they had done. I really did! I was so upset and angry at this person, I refused to talk to her, or have anything to do with her.
What she did really affected me badly. I never got the chance to be able to say goodbye… and I will never.
I love you so much Nana! I want you to know that. I miss you so much x
Rest In Peace
Lots of love your grand-daughter Becky
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