Day 5 - Your Dreams

33 3 0

by The_Pics

Dedicated to The 3 amazing people mentioned in here x

by The_Pics

Day 5 – Dreams

Dear Dreams,

This one is hard to write about. I don’t really know what to say… I mean… I have dreams… both at night… and my dreams that I wish to live.

At night time… I think the dreams all depends on what I’ve been thinking about before bed, or how my day has been. If I’ve had an especially bad day, or I am upset, the dreams usually are terrible… dreams such as close ones being killed, or something that means something to me… and something happens. Usual I wake up from some of these dreams shaking. These dreams haunt me for a few days.

If I’ve had a good day, or I’m happy when I go to bed, I usually don’t have any dreams… rarely, I will have a good one though. I love going through a night without nightmares

I don’t tell anyone about these dreams except my mums, because they haunt me and scare me. I can’t sleep at night sometimes and in some circumstances they make me cry.

Then I have dreams… dreams for the future, for others.

When I was 3… I dreamed to be a clock fixer when I was older. That dreams not exactly at the top of my list now xD. Since I was about 7 I’ve wanted to be a doctor. To this day… I still want to be one.. but I’m thinking more realistically. I suppose it’s pretty upsetting… that I don’t think I’ll be able to pursue my dream. I’m going to try so hard to do to get as close to that dream as possible.

I’ve got other dreams I can try to aim for though. Ever since travelling with the family, and observing Dad’s photography, I have really developed a liking for it We have some amazing photos that were taken while travelling. I want to be able to be like you Dad.

Interior designing is also another interest I have. I don’t think it’s as big as a pursuit as my other interests... but I suppose it’s always an option.

I started ballet at the age of… 3. I absolutely loved ballet. One of the most amazing things ever. At around the age of 10, I started gymnastics. I loved both ballet and gymnastics. I had become really good at ballet and I told myself it was something I would definitely continue as I got older.

I was really good at gymnastics. They asked me to join the higher level group. I spent 4 hours at gym on a Saturday. I then had about 6 hours of ballet included. I was dedicated.

Until that one Saturday. I was pumped, ready to run up to the vault. I was so excited. We were finally using the actual vault and we were flipping. I ran up and jumped flipping before landing on the mat. I was so happy with my jump.

As I walked back to the end of the runway, my knee started to ache. I thought it must have been from hitting it on the bars earlier on. But as I went to run up again…I collapsed. I don’t even know what happened. My knee just gave in. I stood up and tried to walk, but found it was excruciating. I was taken over to a bench and sat down. I knew from the look on the gym coaches face… it wasn’t good. Over the next 20 minutes until the lesson finished, my knee got worse.

By the time I got home, I couldn’t work, and Dad had to carry me inside. I quit gymnastics that day.

I was so upset. People don’t realise how attached people get to a certain sport they do. It’s hard to quit!

I continued ballet for about another 4 years… but during those years… I knew it was over. My knee continued to bother me. Some lessons were so bad I had to ice them after each lesson. I ended up quitting ballet as well. That was so incredibly hard! I cried. I admit it.

I ended ripping a ligament in my knee.

My dreams of continuing ballet through my teen years was taken away. It upsets me so much to this day.

I know that was more like story time… but it just goes to show how quickly our dreams can be ripped from us.

I have dreams for other people as well. There are so many people I know that are so strong, and have been through so much.

(I’m going to call you… Tommy << Cause it sounds more girly…than Tom... I'll stop rambling.) There’s this one girl I know. She is absolutely amazing. Unfortuneately, she’s unable to talk… and only said her first word in 7 years a few months ago. You don’t know how happy I was for her! This girl is so incredibly strong! I don’t know how she does it. I dream/wish for the best for her… especially with her speech. I love you so much Tommy!

(You’re Joshina cause you like Joshy) There’s also someone else I know. I love this girl to absolute pieces! She is absolutely amazing! I don’t think there is anything that I really need to wish for… or dream for, for this girl. I suppose I just dream/wish for the best for her. I wouldn’t want anything to happen to her… ever! I love you so much Joshina!

(Your Tom Daley... cause your a guy... xD) You are so amazingly strong it's just incredible. You've been through some pretty rough times... but you are so incredible at making it through them. I suppose I dream/wish the best for you... and that the problems work out for you and that you stay strong through each and everyone of them, no matter how big or small. I love you so much Tom!

Keep dreaming ♥

Love Becky xx