Day 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to

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by The_Pics

by The_Pics

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Dear ******,

I don’t think you really deserve a second chance, maybe you do. I don’t know. I don’t really have anyone else I could do. Nobody I know deserves a second chance. Or I’ve given them a second chance.

You’re a friend of one of my closest friends. I spoke to you a few times and you seemed lovely.

Then you tried to commit suicide. You wrote a suicide and posted it.

You didn’t commit suicide in the end. The next time I spoke to you, you were really depressed and upset. You told me why you tried to commit suicide. I’m shit in these situations and I didn’t know what to say. I suggested that you go to a counsellor. I know how much people like you hate going to see someone. I don’t have problems and I would hate to go to a counsellor. I don’t know if you went or not. You told me you did, but who knows.

One day, I “poked you” as a joke. You told me to stop it and go away. Geez. Take a breather

Crap started to happen to me and my friends around me and I was really upset, and weak. I talked to you one time and I sent this really upsetting message. Your response. “Lol.” I couldn’t believe it. I asked why you said lol and you said, “I don’t know.”

I immediately ignored you. You didn’t bother talking to me. That was fine with me. I couldn’t care less.

One day, I received a message from you. Why the hell were you talking to me? I opened the chat message and found about 4 lines. I read it. You had sent me some emotional suicide message thing asking if I would miss you when you were gone, or if anyone would notice, or if anyone would really care.

I ignored it. You probably just wanted attention. It really annoyed me.

The next day, you sent another different message. It was similar to the message you sent yesterday I was talking to my friend and he suggested I ask why you was sending the message. Probably one of the stupidest things I’ve done. I asked why you’d sent it and you told me that you had meant for that message to be for something else. Of course you didn’t. You don’t send those sort of messages to people during a conversation.

I told my friend what I had said. We then got into this huge fight. Me and my friend. I didn’t bother asking you anything again.

Sometimes I try and make conversation with you but it’s obvious you don’t want to talk to me. I don’t really think… I’ll give you a second chance but you’ve made a lasting impression

Becky