How You See Me...

Derek Hale Useless, Failure Wolf

Another day to decide if I am good enough or not.

I miss them.

I am so tired. 

I am alone. 

Everyone I love...they get hurt. 

What do you do when you can't do it anymore?

I know I was supposed to be strong.

The Alpha, the pack leader.

Here I am crumbling, trying to hold on to everything and nothing at all.

Derek Hale useless, failure wolf.

I swallow the lump in my throat. I need to motivate myself to move, but it's already been a messy morning in my head.

I turn my head to look at the clock on my night stand the bright blue digital numbers were taunting me as the time to get to work slowly ticked closer.

By night Derek was an Alpha wolf, controlling his pack and defeating anything that threats it. By day because he had to keep up appearances Derek worked at his family owned auto shop.

 Now Derek really did not need to work, his family had passed away and left him everything. More than enough to have him set for the rest of his life, and to be honest the shop pretty much ran itself. The people who worked there had been working for his family for years and were well aware that the Hale family were more hands off when it came to the properties they owned. Derek was particularly fond of working on cars so he really didn't mind working there. And with no one really having expectation from him, he could come and go as he pleased. Which he enjoyed because sometimes wolf business was time consuming.

So, he could skip today, but he decided mindless car mechanics was probably the best thing for his brain right now. He really didn't want to be left alone with the thoughts in his head.

Sighing, he lifted himself off the bed and proceeded to shower and get dressed. He wore his everyday attire, v neck grey shirt, jeans, leather jacket and boots. He was the owner after all so no one would say shit to him about how he dressed.

He locked his house door and headed to his beloved black Camaro. He started the engine and she purred to life. He accelerated and his day began.