Insecure

The way of the family-MS

Authors note:

Hey guys it's me again.  I know it's been around a week since I have updated.  Right now, I am practically telling you what is going on in my life now. From now and in the past.

************************************************************************************************************************MY LIFEMy family and I are still sorting things out with all of this.  I although do have something to tell you guys reading this.  If you are having problems.  Go tell someone, go get help.  Do something,  when your family and friends find out ( THEY WILL FIND OUT).  They will be heart broken.  You then start to feel guilty.  People start worrying about you.   My BFF whenever she cant watch me eat she stresses out about me.  Those are the things that pass through my head.   People stress.  I stress because I know people are worrying about me.  It all turns into a big gigantic mess.    When my family  found out  they never really said anything.  Then one day when I was at school.  That morning I had taken 3 bit of toast.  I accidentally left it on the table,  Mom definately noticed that.  That day my mom and dad talked.  When I came home Mom told me, that she noticed that I would do whatever I could to not eat.  I tried to go back to the excuse I had been using, that my stomach hurt at dinnertime.   She didn't fall for it.  Since she works at the school, when either Faith or Blake talked to Mom. She found out that I had been giving all of my lunch away.  She found out that Faith would yell at me to eat at lunch.  I would always yell back saying NO! That I wasn't hungry and didn't want to eat.  After Mom had talked to me I still continued not to eat.  I didn't stop until  about a week ago.  I realized how skinny I was.  I have been gaining weight.  In October I weighed 98 lbs.   I now weigh 105 lbs.  I weighed myself today.