When Mr. Business Man fell Inlove (Montefrio #2)

Kabanata 46

Lutang ako. Sobra. Papasok na ako sa Hospital, hindi ako nakatulog ng maayos. Isang oras lang ata ang tulog ko kagabi.

Hindi na ako umuwi, doon ako nagpalipas ng gabi sa bahay, buti nalamang mayroon pa akong natitirang damit doon. At sinabi ko na din kay summer na wag nalang sabihan ang iba na mayroon nanaman kaming problema. Let me handle this alone. Let me face this alone. Let me end this alone.

Napahinga naman ako ng malalim bago pumasok sa Hospital. Binati ako ng mga kasamahan ko, tumango nalamang ako at ngumiti. I don't have enough energy to talk to them nor greet them.

I don't have enough energy to talk to tyler right now, I just want my peace. And I hope kaya ko siyang iwasan ngayong araw. I need to rest my mind.

Nagulat nalamang ako na pagpasok ko palang sa opisina ko naka-upo na ang lalaking ayaw na ayaw ko makita ngayong araw. He is sitting on my chair. How rude of him.

"Don't you know the word privacy, and respect?" I coldly asked.

"Don't you know how to, obey orders?" He also said.

"I'am an independent woman, I don't obey someone's order" I angrily said.

"You are my woman, so you have to listen, to what I will say" He said.

"I'am not someone's property, I own myself! You cannot just order me around! I have my own decisions and you cannot forbid me to go!" I shouted.

I'am very mad. I hate this kind of set-up, I don't wanna be an under Girlfriend. I can't let him control me.

"Calm down, Mi amore" He said.

"Get the fuck out" I said.

He smirked. "Did you just cursed at me?" He said while smirking.

"So?" I asked back.

"You look hot when you're cursing" He stated.

Isinawalang bahala ko nalamang ang kanyang sinabi dahil wala akong oras makipag biruan sakanya. I'am in a serious mode. And if he will act that way then he can get out.

"Let's talk" He said.

"We are talking, so please just let me do my job" I said to him.

"So you're just gonna ignore me for today?" He stated.

"Yes" I instantly said.

"You cannot just do that" He fired back.

Tumingin naman ako sakanya. "Yes I can, and yes I will" I stated and looked at him in the eyes.

I want him to know that I'am serious about this manner. My heart and my mind is in complete chaos right now, I don't know who to trust. Am i gonna trust my heart?, or my mind? Its a complete chaos. And I need to fix this alone.

"I will not let you do that" He said.

Napatawa naman ako. "You cant? But how many times did you hurt me?, How many times did you make me feel this way?" I said to him.

He remained quiet.

"Everytime!, I feel that Everytime I need to compete with other girls because I feel so fucking insecure! Lagi mo nalang ba ako ipagpapalit? Palagi nalang ba akong magmamakaawa na wag ka ng mambabae? Na ako nalang?" I cried.

"I don't deserve this! Damn. I know, Pero pinili ko padin masaktan dahil sobrang mahal kita! Sana naman pahalagahan mo ako, hanggang kailan? Hanggang kailan yung ganito? Hanggang kailan ako iiyak dahil mayroon ka nanamang bago? Since elementary hanggang sa nag college ako ang talino ko! Pero pagdating sayo, wala na akong alam, ang alam ko nalang ay yung mahal kita! Mahal na mahal kita, sobra handa akong magtiis sa ganito, handa ako pero di ko naman sinabi na kaya ko yung ganitong sakit" Napahikbi na ako.

He was about to touch me, pero umilag ako agad. Napailing nalamang ako. "Don't touch me" I said while crying.

"Mahabang panahon kong prinotektahan yung puso ko, pero sa isang iglap, binasag mo nanaman, Pagod na pagod na ako" Hikbing pahayag ko.

"Kailan ka magbabago? Para naman masabihan ko pa yung sarili ko na, kaya ko pa" Nakangiting pahayag ko sakanya.

Napailing naman ito. "I don't have any other woman, since you left hanggang sa bumalik ka, ikaw lang ang bukod tanging babaeng hinahangad ko" Pahayag nito saakin.

Napatawa naman ako. "Who is mica?" I asked.

Nabigla naman ito. He remained silent. I waited for him to respond, pero mukhang hindi pa din ito nakakabawi sa pagkagulat.

"See" I stated.

"Where did you got that name?" He asked me.

"That's not important, I'am asking who is mica, prove to me that I'am wrong, prove me wrong, please!" I pleaded.

Napayuko naman ito at umiling. "I just can't" He said.

Mas lalo akong napaiyak. "So I'am right, I am always right" I said.

Umiling ito. "No. Just trust me. She is not my woman, its not the time to tell you who she is" He stated.

"And you expect me to believe you, with that stupid lies?" I asked him sarcastically.

"I'am hoping that in this very last one, you can trust me" I said.

"Basag na basag na ako, tinaya ko na lahat, if i would trust you once again, what's left for me?" I asked him.

"Let me fix our happily every after, Mi amore" He said.

Napatawa naman ako ng mapait. "Kung hindi mo ako niloko, we already had our happily ever after, but you blew it up" I said to him.

"I admit, that I fucked up that time" He confessed.

"And you fucked up again, this time." I stated.

Umiiling-iling ito. "I did not fucked up this time, can you just trust me? And stay by my side whatever happens?" He plead.

"I stayed by your side, for so many long years, I gave you the outmost support as a Girlfriend, but you proved me wrong, every fucking time, Kung susugal pa ako, may matitira pa ba sa sarili ko?" Tanong ko sakanya.

"Pinusta ko sarili ko, para sayo, pero ni minsan hindi mo ako na-ipanalo" Saad ko sakanya.

"Sana naman maging fair ka, hindi sa lahat ako yung susugal, hindi sa lahat ng bagay ako yung lalaban para saatin, hindi sa lahat ng bagay iintindihin kita sa mga babae mo" I stated.

Nakayuko lamang ito at pinapakinggan lang ang aking sinasabi at ang mga hinanakit ko sakanya.

Lumapit ako sakanya, at hinawakan ang kanyang dalawang pisnge. " Sana ako naman yung ipanalo mo" Naiiyak na pahayag ko sakanya.