Freedom- Yoongi BTS

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My legs were burning but that didn't stop me from going faster; I needed to go away, in a place where I could be alone, where troubles and judgments couldn't get me.

My breathing was fast and rugged, my lungs begging me to slow down in an attempt to catch a drop of oxygen.

I didn't know how long I had been running away, the only thing I was able to focus on was the path in front of me. One feet in front of the other, until even that simple action lost its meaning.

At this point I was hiking the small mountain in front of me, the street going up and growing narrower; my hands were hurting, probably bleeding, judging by the pain.

It was only when I felt myself slowly giving up, the energy abandoning my body, leaving me drained and panting on the ground; that I saw in front of my eyes my destination.

I slowly crawled forward, until I moved to a more comfortable sitting position.

The lake was calm, water rippled by the gentle breeze, crickets softly singing to the evening.

Everything was so calm and peaceful, and I carefully allowed my body to relax; the spiral of thought slowing down until it stopped completely.

A tear escaped my eye, soon followed by another and many more after that, until I was full on crying.

The world around me slowly disappearing in a blurry cloud, sound quieting to a calm pace.

Several minutes later, I opened my eyes, rubbing them in an attempt to clean the last tears; that cry had been liberating, I was more lucid, again owner of my thoughts.

I looked around and suppressed a shout when I spotted Yoongi sat beside me.

He gave me an apologetic smile, but remained silent, waiting for me to do the first move.

"I'm sorry" I said, my voice cracking in the way "I shouldn't have said that."

"I'm sorry too" he said, shocking me "it was my fault"

I didn't know how to respond, so I choose to remain silent.

We didn't exchange a word for some time, until I decided to break the silence "My real name is not April" I whispered, almost scared of his reaction.

"It was Annie the original one" I paused, taking a deep breath "but I changed it when I run away; I just needed a fresh start where my past wouldn't come to haunt me."

"I was so obsessed with the idea of freedom and living my own life, that I never took time to reflect on its real meaning." I moved a piece of hair from my face "Do you know, what April means ?" I asked, not really expecting an answer "it means freedom " I answered "at least is what Google says."

I turned to look at the singer, smiling at his shocked expression painted on his face.

We fell again in a deep silence, only interrupted by the chanting crickets.

"I was really mean that day" he said, breaking the silence again "we had a big argument, and I said terrible things to all of them." a big grimace on his face "I have always been like that, now thinking about it."

I stayed silent, letting him continue "they have tried to help me, but I didn't let them." A single tear run down his cheek "I don't deserve them! I don't deserve to be in the group! No wonder they abandoned me" he slowly trailed off as more tears left his eyes.

"Yoongi" I spoke softly "they didn't leave you, they just gave you time to think about it and get better." I explained "I think they all miss you in their own way."

He looked down, refusing to meet my eyes, drawing patterns on the ground.

"Yoongi" I called him again "let's make a deal " I said while his head shoot up "before this journey ends we have to promise to both works on our problems, okay?"

"Deal?" I asked, offering my hand to him.

"deal"he said shaking it.