What I wish for.

TALK (chapter 3)

I usually wait for people to TALK to me, something that I really hate about me is that most of the time I just laugh because i get nervous, a nervous laugh comes out let's just say.
-So, as you know, I'm in a band- Daniel finally breaks the silence
-nooo, really?- I say sarcastically but laughing
-yeah, and my friends are really cool, also really funny- he keeps telling me
-well I'm so excited to meet them- I smile sweetly. -So are they, you might probably not believe it, but your dad has been talking about you and we got really excited because he described you as an amazing person so we were really looking forward to it, and I can say that you are- godd, I start to get really happy and kind of stupid, or well I really don't know how to describe how I was feeling but it was kind of like that.
-That so sweet of you- I feel my eyes kind of itchy, which means I am going to cry, but of course I don't let him see that. I want to cry because, for me, a complement, it's really good, i don't get them really much.
-You are welcome, hahaha- he takes a long pause, but when I'm about to open my mouth he asks me: -what's the first thing you want to do when you get there?- Seriously? He can't keep his mouth shut, I fucking love it.
-Well, I don't really have anything planned, so it's pretty much up to God- we both laughed
-you never told me if  you were going to miss your boyfriend- he keeps going back to that subject which makes me feel something on my stomach
-well, the truth is that I will- I stop so I can see his reaction
-oh, really?- He says with sadness and I'm about to laugh so hard but I keep it
-yes... if I had one- I let that laugh out. My god, his expression changes immediately
-I thought you did- he says really relived
-no, and I don't know why, i just simply... hahaha, I really don't know
-Have you had a boyfriend yet?- He keeps trying to get to know me
-yeah, I mean I had just had been in one relationship, but , it was kind of weird, do you want to hear it?- I laugh and so does he
-I'd love to- he says
-okay, so everything started when I was 16, right?, I had a crush on this boy but I actually never thought we were going to be together, but everything changed when I was in third semester and of course we talked before but it wasn't a friendship. Then he finally decided to make the move, I was actually really happy and I thought there was nothing that could make me happier until that same summer, (by the way we started dating in March) I was starting to lose my feelings for him and I don't really know why, and I really forced myself to try to catch them all over again, but I just couldn't, and I mean nobody can control that, right?- Daniel keeps nodding his head as he listens to me -so, I was starting to get really distant with him and he obviously noticed it, we used to FaceTime each other all the freaking time, and I guess I kind of got sick of it too, plus, I mean I know I just met you but hahaha, ok, all he was always thinking about was sex, i mean he treated me super nice but it was just to pretend that he was a nice boyfriend, therefore I owed him sex because of the way he behaved with me and every time we were together he always wanted to touch my butt and boobs of course, I never let him do something that I didn't want, I even moved from were I was to make him understand that I didn't want it but I guess he wouldn't understand it, and plus sometimes he made comments like 'I'm watching a movie and there's this really dirty scene and I was like whaaaat, but I mean it's something that we can both do the next time we see each other' and I was like 'dude no, I wanna fucking cuddle and talk, I don't want to have sex' and I guess that was pretty much why everything ended, he wanted to work on us but I really didn't, besides I was about to graduate so I really was looking more forward to this trip. It's having the best beginning by the way- I see Daniel and he kind of has a "WOW face"
-First of all- he finally says -I thank you for sharing this with me hahahaha, and second of all, I think you did the best, I mean like you said, if you didn't feel anything anymore it was the right thing to do, for the sake of both of you- we kept talking for a while and then we both fall asleep, for probably one hour.

We have been on the plane for almost 3 hours, from which, like I said, we have been sleeping 1 of them. I wake up and I see Daniel, he is still sleeping, he looks really cute, but OH FUCK!, he wakes up and sees that I was looking at him
-uh, what's going on?- He says kind of confused because of the way I was looking at him
-I just tried to wake you up because we are here-of course I lie, but thank God we are here, Daniel simply looks out and sees that in fact we are in L.A.

The three of us go to look for my bags, as soon as they come out, we take them and then we go outside and wait for a cab.
-How hard it is to get a cab in Los Angeles?- My dad says, Daniel and I look at each other and laugh
-it's not like we are the only ones with the need of transportation, dad.

We are waiting and the time flies soooo slowly that I also start getting desperate. I just go inside of the airport again to buy an iced tea for me and Daniel because we both were so thirsty, we didn't drink anything for being talking and talking. While I am in there my dad calls me -hey, did you want something for you?- I ask grabbing my iced tea
-No, the cab is here, hurry up if you are not here in five it'll leave- as soon as my dad says that i run outside and thank God i make it. I get into the car and then we start going to my house, well, my dads house.
I put my earphones and start listening to my favorite songs and at the same time I keep looking at the window, it's actually really pretty although it's raining, but I don't mind, I love the rain.
We arrive, I help carrying my bags, that by the way are just three of them. My dad opens the door and of course we start walking upstairs and my dad opens the door of my room and I am speechless, he actually has it the way I have always wanted it. I could swear that it's exactly like my Pinterest boards.
-Dad, you didn't have to- i say as I take a look around
-Of course I did- he put my bags on my bed
-thank you, really thank you- my dad smiles, Daniel it's jut standing on the door
-you are so welcome, now I'm going to leave, get ready I'll pick you up at 8:30- I nod, Daniel and I just say goodbye with our hands. I lay down on my bed and stare at the ceiling. I love being here.