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"Why would I lie to you?"
Sheyaa
"The stars look brighter than usual." Symere observed in awe. We were currently sitting on the porch, watching the stars.
"Yeah they are." I responded. "Sy?" After spending the entire day trying to ease my anxiety and stress about the situation, I figured that I was ready to confess my feelings.
"Yeah?" He answered.
"I've been wanting to talk to you about something." I muttered, feeling the butterflies fill my stomach. I was no longer in the calm state that I was once in. I was nervous. What if he doesn't feel the same way?
"Okay, what do you want to talk about?"
"Um." I could feel myself being engulfed in fear. "I don't know how to put it."
"It's alright, take your time." I smiled nervously. As much as I really wanted to do this I just couldn't help but worry about the outcome. Was it really worth the risks?
"Okay, I've been thinking about this for a while and," I took a pause, letting out a sigh before continuing. "I feel like I really need to get this off my chest."
"Go on."
"But I'm just a little worried about what you're gonna say after I tell you. Will you be upset if I told you?" Aside from rejection, making Symere upset was my second biggest fear. I would hate to see him worked up over this, especially since it'll be because of me this time.
"I can't promise that. It all depends on what you tell me." He answered truthfully. His response made me more nervous than before. What if this angers him so much that he decides to stop being friends with me? I don't want to lose him. I felt a gentle pat on my back. "There's nothing to worry about so try not to worry so much, okay? If I do happen to get mad just know that I can't stay mad at you forever."
"Okay."
"Do you think you're ready to tell me what's on your mind now or do you need more time?" I took a deep breath.
"I think I'm ready." Although these were the words that came out of my mouth, I couldn't help but to think otherwise. Truthfully I wasn't ready but I can't keep this a secret any longer. "Over the past week I've been starting to look at you different." I started. "And I don't think I really like you as a friend no more."
"What do you mean?" He questioned.
"I caught feelings for you Sy. I love you more than a fucking friend." I confessed. "I don't wanna be friends no more, I wanna be more than that."
"Quit playing." Symere responded, followed by a giggle. "I know you're lying." I was instantly saddened. I wasn't expecting him to take it as a joke.
"Why would I lie to you? I'm being serious. I'm tired of being just friends, and I really do love you." It honestly hurt to hear him laugh but I knew he didn't mean it. I don't blame him for thinking I was joking.
"Wait you're being for real right now?" He asked in utter disbelief. I nodded.
"Yeah, I wouldn't play around like that." His expression changed, I could tell that he was starting to feel bad about what he had done.
"I'm so sorry, I didn't know and-"
"It's ok I understand. It was a mistake. You don't have to apologize." I assured him. "So, what do you think?"
"I'm just surprised. I didn't expect you to like me like that." He expressed. "But I'm not mad about it, what made you think I'd be mad?"
"I just thought that you'd feel uncomfortable about me liking you and you wouldn't feel the same." I vocalized. "I don't want to make things weird between us."
"Don't worry, you didn't make me feel uncomfortable."
"So how do you feel then? Do you feel the same?"
"I think I do." He mumbled while staring at the ground. I smiled. I felt relieved knowing that we both had feelings for each other. I pulled him closer and watched his face heat up.
"Why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"I was confused at first so I just decided to push them away. I didn't want to tell you something if I wasn't sure."
"How do you know you're sure now?"
"Because after you've been spending time with me and supporting me through everything, I realized that I could trust you with my heart." He responded. "I don't think anyone else could show me the love that you show me."
"So it's official?" I asked. He nodded with a smile.
