Hҽαtɧҽr 【Sєqυєℓ】 ➸ ᴛᴀᴇᴋᴏᴏᴋ

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❝As you walk by
Wish I could stay but I sigh
Led astray by her guise
You've got me mesmerized
I can't lie❞

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Christmas came but nothing was jolly for me. I broke up with Heather without giving her enough reasons why and broke your heart at the same time.

I thought you would find yourself someone better but you still wanted me who didn't even deserve you.

I couldn't bring myself to face you, even though many other friends came over to brighten my mood but nothing could help me because I was only waiting for you.

They say Christmas time is jolly time, full of friends and family to cherish every moment but I felt blank and alone all this while. I wished I could see you but I couldn't and you didn't even come to see me either if I didn't make any effort.

This was my worst Christmas and I missed you more and more all this while. I couldn't even see your face for days as school was closed and I craved to see you more than anything.

I was dying to see you and waited for you to come over at my place but time flew by and the day passed away but you didn't come even though I waited.

After thinking for so long, I made my way to your house, anxiety filling me up throughout the way. I watched the dim lights of your bedroom from outside, staring at your balcony and waiting for you to at least come out so I could see you but you didn't.

I could hear cheers coming from your drawing room. It was lightened up, I could see through the windows and I got the idea you were busy with your family.

I couldn't get to face you so I chose to put the present at your door and pressed the bell twice before leaving.

It was the sweater that I was willing to give you because I let you get cold many times. Now that I wasn't there to warm you anymore so I gave you another sweater.

And the next day you sent me a wrist watch as a present but you sent it through someone else. More than being happy to get the present I was sad that you didn't give it to me by yourself. Having it wrapped around my wrist made no sense.

Since then I started spending my day all alone in the darkness of my room. I tried not to be suspicious to my family but they asked about you many times and I had to fake a smile and say you were doing fine when you actually were not.

Your birthday was coming closer and I can never forget how special it is for me but before this I had to fix things with Heather and to save yours and mine precious relationship of seven years.

I tried to talk to her a lot of times but her anger was obvious so I gave her enough time.

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