shikkaku // dazai one shots

am i dreaming ?

are you dreaming? nothing feels real. you couldn't quite tell if your memories were real or not, and everything certainly felt real, you think.

"what's wrong?" dazai's soft-spoken question caught you off guard as you looked up at him from your form.

oh, nothing.

his frown scared you. did he hate you? was he disappointed with you answer? did you even answer him?

"are you sure?"

[name] stared back out of the window, not looking at anything in particular as they fell back into their catatonic daze. the office was quiet but they weren't paying attention.

"maybe—"

you paused. you didn't know where you were going with that. you decided to continue talking to see where you were going. "maybe i'm insane."

yes you're insane.

no you're not insane.

you're.

do you want to help me? i'm going insane i think.

i can't help you my dear. you need to help yourself.

but i'm scared. i don't know what to do. this dream state is easy. i'm not scared here. i'm detached, i can't be hurt.

you're not helping yourself here. you're not here. you need to be present. you need to face your struggles and live on.

"[!-'3]."

you need to help them. they're scared.

who?

[jwkd]

"[name], [name]."

"i'm awake."