i think i like you // emily prentiss x reader

nine.

a/n: this chapter might be kinda boring, as of rn starting this, i have absolutely no idea what i wanna do so if it sucks by then end, i'm sorry... i'm just writing to get out of my bad headspace so this might be a little more of a sad chapter..

edit note: i just finished editing this and i just wanna put a slight tw about a little bit of a panic attack in this chapter,, pls be mindful of your own mental health!! (ill put a tw near the part it's at)

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y/n pov: i could tell emily was annoyed so i looked at jj and she must've sensed the same tension. "i'll go talk to her," she said before leaving the room and following emily out. i felt a little uneasy because i didn't know what i had done to frustrate her so much, but none the lest, i tried to distract myself and continued looking over evidence and the board to see if i could find anything new or helpful to the case.

i felt someone come up next to me and i looked over to see rossi. he didn't look at me, and continued staring at the whiteboard, "so, how do you feel about the things that morgan and jj have said to you about prentiss?" he asked. i continued looking at the board and was quiet for a moment before answering, "i honestly don't know.. i guess i'm a little confused by it," he looked at me this time with a bit of confusion on his face. "why are you confused about it?" he asked and i looked at him before answering, "because look at her, and look at me." and with that he nodded his head a bit before looking me in the eyes again, "you don't give yourself enough credit, you know?" 

i didn't say anything in response but he knew i was thinking about what he said, and pulled me in for a hug. i felt my eyes get glassy and i didn't know why. it seemed like this reaction happened every time someone pulled me in for a hug, and i wasn't sure if it was because of the person who was embracing me, or the fact that i had been putting up a front for too long.

emily pov: when jj followed me out of the room, i didn't want to speak to her but i also knew i was being irrational in my actions. i took a step back and tried to calm myself down, "emily you don't need to get jealous. y/n and i were just talking about what you had said to morgan and i on the jet," she said. i was annoyed that jj knew me so well, i hated that she was able to read me like a book so easily and i looked at her. "i just really don't wanna mess this up, jj," i said before she hugged me. "you won't em," she said before letting go and linking my arm.

we walked back into the conference room and most all of the team was back by now. i looked at y/n and noticed a slight glassy look in her eyes and i made eye contact with her, cocking my head slightly. she gave me a tight, closed mouth smile before looking away and this made my anxiety rise. she avoided me for the next three hours, and all the way up until we went to the hotel for the night. 

when we got in the lobby, we were given our room keys and when i got to mine, i saw y/n unlocking the door instead of jj. i knew this was the doing of garcia or jj and this instantly made me happier, but i was also worried, because she hadn't been speaking to me pretty much at all today. i could tell her mood had shifted from this morning and i just hoped i wasn't the reason behind it.

y/n pov: after what rossi said to me, i kind of froze. it made me feel vulnerable and suddenly all i wanted to do was be alone to process my thoughts. this obviously wasn't an option so i pushed the thought away until i could be alone later tonight, or so i thought. 

(TW) when we got to the hotel and i found out that jj had gotten the single room, i suddenly got very flustered and felt like crying again. it wasn't that i didn't want to be with emily, because i was actually very pleasantly surprised by this, i just needed alone time to think for a little bit. once her and i were in the room, i immediately went to the bathroom and locked myself inside, sliding to the floor, before finally letting myself cry. i tried to keep my volume to a minimum but knew i was failing miserably. i was just trying to process everything morgan, jj, and rossi had said to me and i couldn't figure out why it was stressing me out so much.

after about an hour i had finally calmed myself down and was staring blankly at the wall when heard a soft knock on the door, and i knew it was emily. i was embarrassed for myself but knew i couldn't spend the rest of the case locked in this five by five room so i reluctantly stood up and went to open the door. when i looked at myself in the mirror, there was tear satins on my cheeks and my eyes were slightly puffy from crying. i tried to straighten myself out a bit but realized there was no use. i took a deep breath before opening the door to be greeted face to face with emily. "hey," she spoke softly. "i'm sorry," i said in a whisper and she shook her head lightly before embracing me into a hug. "there's nothing to apologize for," she said and i couldn't help but relax a little at her response.

she pulled back to look me in the eyes, "how about i make us some tea, and you get yourself comfy. if you wanna talk about it, i'm here to listen, and if not, that's okay too." i looked at her and tried to smile but i was only bale to force a half hearted one and i hugged her again tightly in response.

emily pov: hearing her soft sobs, it broke my heart to see y/n like this, and the worst part was i had a gut feeling it was about me. once i heard her calm down, i knocked on the door and after a minute or two, she opened it. seeing the state she was in shattered me. after i pulled her into a hug she said she was going to take a shower. while she was in the bathroom i heated up some water in the coffee pot for tea and put on a movie for background noise, not even paying attention to the title.

not long after, y/n made her exit from the bathroom and when i looked at her, i could tell she had cried again; she looked drained. i got up to pour the hot water into the to-go mugs, mixing in a bit of sugar before sitting down on one of the beds. i expected her to take a spot on the other one but instead she came over and sat down next to me. i handed her the cup i had made for her and she quietly thanked me. 

we sat in silence for a little before she finally spoke. "i'm sorry about earlier," she said and i could hear her trying to keep her voice steady before she continued, "i know you already said it was fine, i just.... i don't know what happened and all of a sudden i couldn't breathe and i started panicking and-" her voice was rushed and she cut herself off, taking a breath. i set down my cup and took hers from her hands setting it down as well before pulling her into me. 

y/n pov: despite my hard exterior, i just wanted someone to hold me, and tell me everything was going to be okay; and i wanted that someone to be emily. i wasn't much of a physical person and i usually hated the idea of anyone touching me but she was just different, in the best way possible. once she wrapped her arms around me, i clutched onto her, and it felt like it was for dear life, as she rubbed small circles on my back.

"do you want to go to bed?" she asked me and i just nodded my head in response. i layed down and got under the blankets. she got up to go to the other bed but i grabbed her arm and looked at her with almost pleading eyes, "can you stay here?" i asked. she looked at me with her infamous soft eyes, "yeah," she said in a tone to match her eyes, "i'm just gonna shower real quick, i'll be right back." i nodded my head in response before she left the room and i heard the water turn on. i clicked off the tv and tried to calm myself down more in order to actually be able to sleep tonight.

emily pov: when i returned back to the bedroom, i set my clothes down by my bag before turning to look at y/n. she was curled up under the blankets and seemed to be asleep. i debated going to my own bed, but knew that when she woke up, she would see i wasn't there and i didn't want to risk upsetting her more than i possibly already had. 

i pulled back the white duvet and climbed in next to her, pulling it back over my body and making sure she was covered. i assumed she had felt the bed sink in next to her because she had shifted her body to be pressed up against my side, and i instinctively wrapped an arm around her, pulling her closer into me. she put one of her hands on my torso, and i took it into mine, pressing a soft kiss to the back side of her palm. she hummed a bit in response and i smiled to myself, pressing another kiss to the top of her head.

with her eye still closed, she whispered into the dark, "thank you again emily. i don't deserve you. you're incredible," and i couldn't help the blush that was spreading across my cheeks. "of course," i said in response, "always." i laid there for a bit, before hearing her breathing even out.

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a/n: ok so... wasn't expecting it to take that turn but here we are, and i'm not mad about it hehe