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yuna went through the massive wooden door in front of her into her father's study where he was doing some paper work. the light in his room was sickly safe for his desk lamp. he didn't look up when she entered, either he was too engrossed in his work or he didn't see the need to give her attention. "sit" he said without looking up.

yuna complied and sit on the edge of the seat. she was feeling uncomfortable, fatigued and hollow. her eyes focused on her still bleeding hand from earlier today, the skin peeled off on a small bit of her thumb. she enjoyed the pain coming from that small wound, it distracted her from her thoughts and feelings.

her father put his pen down, and stood, stalking towards her. "i see that you again failed me" he said slowly, the calm disguising the storm raging inside him. "today's my last warning, shin yuna" he said. "ruin that girl's life, or kill her if you must" she could see his leather shoes near her black pumps. she could fell his eyes burning holes on her head but she did not dare look up unto that raging eyes. the floor suddenly became very interesting. "or else". she could feel the hair on the back of her neck stood up. chills went down her spine. a threat.

her father squat down and leans in to her right ear. "i will kill your little crush". as he retracted she looked up at him, horror glazing her beautiful round eyes, her mouth agape. she shook her head, unable to believe what he said. surely he wouldn't do such a brutal thing.

"you do know i always keep my promises" a wisp of a smile lingered on his lip. but it wasn't a joking smile or a warm sorry smile. it was cold, almost inhumane. it was like his features were suddenly covered in shadows, she couldn't figure out what he was feeling. but she knew deep in her guts. this was a warning. he would do it. cold sweat down her forehead, down her neck then down her back.

he was in a white knitted sweater looking beautiful like usual. beomgyu was staring at her with such compassion and love. embracing her when she felt something wet and moist between them. she pulled away and saw his white sweater turn red as a sword passes through his body. and the assailant and owner of the sword? it was kim taerin herself, her eyes was devoid of any emotion. beomgyu spewed blood from his mouth as taerin pulled out his sword before stabbing him again and again and again. before he fell down face first in his own pool of blood. limp and unmoving. yuna went numb as she watched the events unfolded itself in front of her. taerin was laughing maniacally bathing in her own boyfriend's blood. yuna fell down on her knees, her breathing erratic and she shifted her gaze to the side.

her father was standing on the sides. staring. observing. and when their eyes met, he mouthed "i told you so".

then he whispered it. "i told you so". then said it. "i told you so". then shout it "i told you so". then screamed it"i told you so". the sound gets louder and louder. "i told you so".
"i told you so". "i told you so". until it was too loud for her to bare. she pushed her ears on her ears in hopes of blocking it to no avail. she felt her eardrums bleed.

silence ensued. then, she opened her eyes, her cheeks moist from the tears she had unconciously produced. her breathing still laboured. and she turned her head. her father's face appeared in front of her, his eyes black and a pool of blood flowing from his eyes as he shrieked "i told you so".

she jolted from her bed. sweat covering every inch of her body as she broke down into tears. when is this going to stop. she was bowlinh, sobbing. it was hard for her to breathe. she took the the bottle of medication and dumped the contents onto her palm and she swallowed it whole. every every pill, every remnants. she didn't care how much she drank as long as it stops. and everything really stopped.

and her ability to control herself with it.

the next thing she knew? she was holding a huge knife close to kim taerin's throat on the edge of the rooftop.

she felt numb, hollow, empty. as she threatened him. he wasn't supposed to be there. she knew he would hate her for doing this but it was better for her to die than for him to die. she will never let her father take her away from her. "take a step closer, and she's dead!"

"yuna, please stop, you don't know what you're doing."

i'm sorry beomgyu but you wouldn't understand.

"i know what i'm doing! this is exactly what i've wanted for her! this is her fate!" yuna hated herself for saying that. for lying to his face. she did not want to kill anyone but what could she do?

he gave her an exasperated look. he heaved a deep breathe. she knew this move so well. a sign of resignation. "okay, stop. what do you want yuna?"

"you wanna know what i want? i want this pest to get out of our lives. i want it to stop obstructing me from being with you. i want it to go to hell, and i'm the one to send her there." she needed to make him leave. hate her. keep his distance from her. her father was too dangerous. she smilled at him but her eyes told a different story. she was doing it for them. so he won't get hurt. so she felt relieved. without warning, her thoughts escaped her mouth.

"i'm doing it for you beomy, for us." then everything went black. she was out of control.