Hopelessly depressed by you

Rehearsing for disaster

Where are the Grease sheet music ??? Where are? Damn ... I know they were around somewhere before I traveled to New York ... I need to find this damn score to be able to rehearse for the first day of rehearsal with the guys ....

No ... no ... no ... because this album is here in the middle of the scores .... Kurt would have liked this album. It was going to be the perfect gift for when he came to see the musical ... if I hadn't done that stupidity ... if we were still together ... and he still loved me .

Damn it!!! Because everything I do reminds me of him ??? Why did I have to be so weak and stupid to lose it 

Of course, the world will be throwing the trash of the person I am in my face. I asked for it ... it's all my fault and I have no reason to complai

Well ..... do what, right? I'm already running out of time to rehearse to be at least decent so as not to be so ashamed ... Since Artie and Finn gave me the role, probably out of pity for the "poor guy who does nothing right and has no one", it's the least I have to do to not embarrass myself on stage or ruin the work of others ... that's what I have lef

"Your story sad to tel

A teenage ne'er do wel

Most mixed up non-delinquent on the bloc

Your future's so unclear no

What's left of your career no

Can't even get a trade in on your smile... 

And to think that this song could be describing my life now ... trite story of a teenager who doesn't know what he's going to do with his life ... but just because I'm stupid and threw my future out of the window with the love of mine life ... and why? For being a needy clueles

Baby get movi

(Better get movi

Why keep your feeble hopes aliv

What are you provi

(What are you provi

You've got the dream but not the driv

Really... my dream of living a lifetime with Kurt is over! I ended this future! Damn ... I can't stop thinking about him ... and he shouldn't even think about me ... or worse ... he should think with anger ... and with reaso

Now your bangs are curle

Your lashes twirle

But still the world is crue

Wipe off that angel face and go back to high schoo

Baby don't blow i

Don't put my good advice to sham

I really need to move on, even if it's not what I want. As difficult as it may be, I need to forget about Kurt ... I don't deserve him ... I don't deserve .

"I'm going to mom !!!

The worst is that I'm not even hungry, but if I don't come down, mom will want to know why I don't want to have dinner, dad will start giving me that sermon about family dinner is a tradition, and it will only make this damn headache worse. ... I better go down ... later, I see what I d

"It's okay at school, dad. No ... I don't want to go back to Dalton, I already said that McKinley has good teachers, Dad. ... yes ... I know that Dalton's curriculum is more specific to the universities of the A-liga ... no dad, I don't intend to do medicine like you ...

Damn it.

"NOT!!! Glee Club is not stupid and singing is not silly! It's my dream! That's what I love! .... DON'T PUT KURT IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS !!! .... sorry dad .... I didn't mean to disrespect you, but it wasn't Kurt who made up my mind to spend my time with music and dancing .... NO .... it's not his fault that I became gay .... I AM GAY! I WAS BORN THIS WAY! IT IS WHO I AM! ..

.... "o.!"..e!t,l.l,d,d,n.e.n)n?e?n)n,s!..w?w,k.l,l,t.n.??..