Kris POV:
I let the guys in and we talked trhough the night while Vivi was about to sleep upstairs.
Chny: Hey, what is going on?
"Haven't you read the news?" I asked
Chny: "I have, but there is nothing that would make me change everything."
"We had to, I feel so bad that I poured out about the miscarriage, Vivi breaks down anytime she has to think about it, and if it wouldn't be enough the media is now all around it."
Suho: "You should be careful.."
Chny: It's not about being careful... Don't understand why she just cant forget it, it's been a really long time."
Suho: That is the point, you don't understand.
"I don't understand either, I mean I get it, it's a huge trauma...I was there with her through every minute. It just feels like anything I say or do or touch I ruin or hurt her. It's not enough to be careful, that's why I moved her here, far away from everything ... "
Chny: Feels like a burden to me. Think about yourself too. You're ruining your job, connections and everything from the world...
"It's 20 mins driving from the city... And I can't think about myself when I do have to think about my relationship. I love and really care a out her, just don't know how to show it in better ways.."
Suho: Tell her... Everything you just said to us, tell her that you care. She already knows but make her sure.
Your POV
I woke up by the sound of the car engine and I ran down. Checked the time it was 5:31 am.
I saw Kris was sat in the car he was about to drive off. I was almost run after him when i saw that funny Yoda near him.
"I hope he takes them home and they wont come back so soon." I murmured when i went to the kitchen looking for some food.
Later I checked all of the rooms it was because i could imagine the Yoda wouldn't clean after himself but i couldn't find any mess in the rooms. I wonder what happened at night.
I went up to rest a little more but instead I went to the balcony. The view was amazing, i could see the whole city. It means that we are somewhere up the hill. I didn't really know the exact address of the house just yet.
I heard my phone buzzing. I ran back to it.
"Yes?"
"Hi honey. Did I wake you up?"
"No, hmm yes, with the car engine earlier"
"Yeah that is why I'm calling, we have some unsceduled meeting soon and probably I will take care of some paper work after so I'll be home a little late"
"Ohh sure.." Sruprised me a little..
"But do you want to go out tonight?"
"What's the occassion?" Not really in the mood so I had to make sure it's important or not.
"Having dinner out."
"Why?"
"Just to have fun, you don't want to?"
"Oh I want to, I'm just.. hmm, it's too..early..When will you come back to me?"
"Around 8. So sweetheart i have to go back, see you later"
"Kisses"
I went in the dressing room and i tried on some of the new dresses I got. Well, it didn't feel that good. Everything was so new, so weird, so sterilized. But it was so pretty I liked them.
I went back to sleep through the main part of the day, the first day alone in such an untouched field.. I didn't feel good or comfortable.
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I got a text from him.
X Babe i'm here come out.
Woossh it's already 7:47 pm, I went down under dressed like i dont care about appearance and climed in the car. Kissed his cheeks.
"I missed you."
"I missed you too. I booked a table for us at a new restaurant."
"New?! What is wrong with any of the old ones?"
As we went towards the new restaurant I panicked.
"Nothing is wrong with them I thought you might like the new clean things around yourself." He said soo calm.
"Stop the car." I said.
"What? Why?"
"Stop it."
"Okay okay just let me find a place."
Heavy breathing and after some tears I started.
"First of all I love you Kris, there is nothing you could change that. But... I don't need to feel new.. I know you're trying your best of bests, but I don't want to forget how did I get here. So please don't make me..."
"I'm..."
"I know Kris, I know but it feels like you're forcing me away from everything I had before, but I don't want to be a new somebody, I want you to understand like you did so good before. Everything is amazing and beautiful and marvellous but it's too much all of a sudden, a new house a new lifestyle...okay okay -big breath- but I can't forget what happened to me or my baby or Lay, even if it would be 10 years already, but these new replacing things and changing and moving is just make me think about the past even more. I love you, i want you to know that once again, and everything you do is telling me that you love me too I just... I feel so numb."
"Thank you. Thank you for telling me. I know that there is a lot going on and on,on that beautiful mind you have. I just tried to help, but tell me how can I... What can I do for You, because You matter to me the most."
Then I just hugged him in the car, not saying anything between sobbing.
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That night he drove back home and talked through some things again...
