While he was finsihed the lunch i went to the living room hugging my knees. I couldn't really eat anything.
He came in and sat next to me.
"Can you talk about it?"
"I'm scared YiFan." I told him straight.
"Why? Did he hurt you?"
"No.. I mean.."
"What happened? Why are you scared?"
Then i slowly started to tell him the whole story.
"Last night. I was at home almost sleeping about midnight." The tears are slowly going down on my cheeks.
He gave me tissues while i was sobbing.
"And - my lips were shaking - Lay's friends woke me up. They shouted and there were girls too."
I took a deep breath and continue.
"Lay came up. He wanted me but i was angry and i went out in panic.. "
He touched my knees and he rubbed my legs from knee to ankle.
"I told to his friends to go out but there was .. Kai.. and.." I started to cry harder
"Did he do anything to you? We can call the police tell them everything and he will get what he deserves.."YiFan asked.
"He told me he wants to sleep with me. He came closer and he started touching my body. I pushed him aside but he was stronger ...and he.. and he hit me hard..."- i told the truth slowly- " I was unable to face him ...or ....push him but then he just gave up on me and I only herad him slamming the door behind him... I couldn't and didn't want to move.. but..then i went up when i heard some annoying girly noise. And that's when i broke into pieces. Lay..... and that girl was..... they were..... making out in my bed." I stopped crying when i finally said it out loud. Just some tears came and heavy breathing.
He was shocked he was about to dial the police number but i told him not to.. He cleared my face from my hair and he raised my head. I could see his eyes were teary too. then he said:
"I'm sorry." He hugged me thight then I kissed him, I was so confused and emotionally broken I didn't know what to do or how to act but it felt good. But he broke the kiss and he looked down. I wasn't thinking anymore I just wanted to kiss him again but he stopped me.
"Viv it's not the right thing to do. I want you.... it's just... not like this."
"But you want it you said it and i want it too."
"It's not the right time, I guess you want to pay back but you mean a lot more to me and I know you would regret this later. Let's just clear our mind first."
He tried to hug me but I break it and went upstairs. I felt so disapointed in everything.I went to the barthroom and I was having a long shower and i was crying out again. A lot of things went through my mind I was thiking about that i lost my virginity to a boy who doesn't even loved me and who's also a cheater and I would've give up everything for that relationship and I mostly did. That one guy who never really approciated me in any way and who was dare to break me into million pieces...
