Kris's point of view
While she was in the hospital, I talked to her doctor and asked a lot of things about her mood changes, how is it supposed to be vs. how is it working out for her. They also offered a woman psychologist just to make Viv talk about her feelings. She'd usually work with women after miscarriage to help them get through the mental pain.
When I told Vivi that she should take the appiontment, she was kind of mad at me because I was a little harsh on her. I mean I had to be.
After all it helped her a lot. She felt better, as she seemed; she wasn't moody that much.
During her pregnancy I had to work a lot, there was ton of campaings and studio work, and act. I was barely find my way home. I kind of felt guilty because not seeing her much, so I tried my best to make sure she is still feel loved. I ocasionally bought new dresses for her and took her out to buy new born baby stuff..
She was at the 4th month when she finally decided which guest room will be our kid's room. We only had 5 months to make it as a baby room. We didn't paint it pink or blue we didn't want to know the baby's gender. We just bought white babydresses. Everything was neutral.
To make her really comfortable we went to a pregnant gym. And she went to practise yoga. She was really calm, and happy at those days.
She made new friends whom also a first baby mother. But that was hard on her. Our baby supposed to be the second. But she never told anyone personally, she tried to keep her distance. Which made her pregnancy harder.
Even though all the help she had, she can't let go of the past and she would still be moody if I'd forget to ask about her day.
I tried to do all the things what a father should have done. Buy and build up the little bed and the furnitures I went to buy diapers... many diapers.. back seat for the baby in the car. And i bought a new rug to the baby's room and some plushies.
Vivien was trying her best, but she always ended up getting mad about stuff that I did or didn't do. She was hard on me.
It was getting real hard to handle the things. I was also stressed out because of all the work I had to do and all the events I had to attend.
Sometimes I'd loved to shout and give up on her nonsense arguments but I had to walk away from those moments...
"Seriously? Why didn't you buy the pram already? Do you think i will carry in my hands or what??" She brusted out when I arrived home.
"Vivi i was about to have a little break. I was on my feet in the past months to work to shop to work and back... Let me watch the tv."
"No. No.. what are you thinking?? I'll raise the baby while you having your coffee break?"
I didn't respond I couldn't believe she made me feel so bad for having a little off time. She went out of the room to the kitchen. I heard she dropping things and once i heard something broke. I ran there to check on her what was really happening.
A few glass was broken on the floor.
"I'm done.. i hate everything... i don't want this baby..." she shouted those words. I was shocked and tried to stop her.
"Hey honey. Stop dropping things. It doesn't solve anything and you may hurt yourself."
"Don't give me advices. I know what am i doing."
She was about to reach another thing from the cupboard but I grabbed her hand.
"Stop." I said harshly. She looked in my eyes and I saw she was already having tears in her eyes and all of a sudden she dropped herself to my chest. I picked her up and took her to the sofa.
"Vivi. Viviah..?!" I called her name but she didn't respond. I called the ambulance because she fainted. Her mental health is not helping her having a child that's for sure.
I was about to gave up as a husband. I thought i couldn't do this anymore.
We were again here at the second floor of the hospital. For the third time now. First when she lost her baby second when we found out she is pregnant and now.
Hours after at about midnight the doctor came up to me.
"Mr Wu. Don't worry she and the baby are fine now. But let me ask you something, do you happen to know what happend to her hand? Some scars like cutting was shown on her skin."
"Ahh thanks doctor." I shake hands with him. "Yes i know. She got them right before we came here. She was angry and she shouted with me than she started dropping glasses. I stopped her then she fainted."
"I see. So you fight with her?" He asked. I took a deep breath and I had to sit down.
"I'm trying my best not to confront her, but I couldn't hold it back anymore. It's so hard to keep up with her moody feelings. Even though she goes to Mrs. Kim, she is still not stable emotionally I guess."
"I see. Well, I don't want to sound bad be I guess it's better is we will keep her here. For the end of the pregnancy."
"Why? Did i do something wrong or.-?" The doctor cutted me.
"No sir. She is just compromised. She better staying away far from the anger and thing which caused anger. Aa you said Mrs Wu is not stable and we don't want to risk the baby's and her life. Better if you go home now and wait for tomorrow."
I couldn't believe what he just said. I have to stay away from my wife and my baby?
"Are you serious?" I asked him in disbelief.
"I'm sorry sir."
I turn back holding my nape. I couldn't really believe how did I became the bad husband in a second.
"Sir i'm sorry but you have to leave."
"Thank you sir." I wasn't really impressed but I went down to my car and i called my best friend Cahnyeol.
"Hi."
"Do you know the time?"
"Yes. But i need to hang out."
"What? Are you ok? Where is Viv?" He asked a bit worried.
"I go to your place. Be ready."
As i arrived at his mansion's gate. He was already there.
"What happened?" He asked. As i parked the car and get out.
"She's at the hospital." I said in a cold tone.
"What?? You should be there." I laughed at him. "What? I'm serious." He continued as we walked in.
"I know. I came from her... the doctor said i better go far... Yeah.... Because i caused the whole thing ... i caused her sickness and anger. Now she is at factor "risk pregnancy". Because of me..."
"What?? You????" He was overwhelmed.
"I have to stay far from them and i can only visit her every second day if she is alright. If she isn't i can't visit her, I guess."
"What the hell happened why they forbid you from her?"
"I told you they think i caused all her anger.... i don't know.. ... where should we go?"
"I don't know. To a bar..." Chan was surprised but at least he wasn't hard on me.
"Let's go then, I call a taxi."
We went to a bar and we drank too much. I didn't rember how we came back to Chanyeol's mansion...
