Under the Influence

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At the end of the phone call, Kiana moved closer to me. "Damn baby girl, I mean you have every right to go off on him like that. I... I don't know what to say about all of that." I said.

"I did because first of all that apology was horrible. Maddison gave me better apologies than that. He could have at least tried to do better. Then he damn near ruined the moment, and told me to get rid of our baby. August, you have been through enough heartbreak by the one person. You deserve happiness, and so much more. Now, what is important is our relationship and our daughter." Kiana said.

"Thank you for defending me to him. Nobody I have been with defended me like that. Now my question is what do you do for work?"

"My main job is real estate. That's also why I got a good deal for your restaurant building. Then my little side when I'm not doing real estate, I run a winery. Which would be the reason why I do drink a lot of wine. Plus I have experimented a lot with you too."

"You are lucky that they were good though baby. Oo baby we should partner up. I could definitely cater to any wine tasting events that most wineries do. I mean you still have to pay me, but I'll give you a special discount." I suggested.

"Yeah free, but that does sound like a good idea. Now no more talking. I want to spend the rest of our morning together cuddling before you head out to work." I looked at the time, and I did have a little while before I had to start getting dressed.

We laid there for about thirty minutes. Kiana somehow fell back to sleep, but I just laid there awake. I rubbed her ass while she slept, honestly it's a natural habit. I grabbed my phone with this lock screen of SZA because why the fuck not and a fine ass piture of Kiana looking like my endgame. I texted my mom for any good therapist . At one point my mom had gone to therapy for something. She texted me this me the woman Meagan Booker. Then she also told me that I can walk in for a quick appointment, and then go through the process of her being my therapist.

I slipped out of Kiana's arms, Church jumped on the couch and laid next to her.

"Thanks Churchy." I whispered and rubbed his head.

Since it's all hot I didn't really want to put on a suit like I would normally do. After I showered I just threw on jeans, which I probably would later regret, a light blue tye dye sailor moon t-shirt, then my white dirty vans. I looked in the mirror looking at my appearance.

"Damn, I look like a white boy. Oh well."  I shrugged. Grabbing my wallet, keys, phone, and sprayed some cologne on and left our room.

I went down the steps seeing Kiana up watching tv. I swear this girl was just asleep not too long ago, but then again it took me thirty minutes to get dressed so that may have given her time to wake up.

"Sleep good love?" I walked over to her, and kissed her.

I heard her sniff me. "You smell good baby, and yes I did. Are you going to the restaurant today?"

"Maybe depending on how this session goes. I had my mom call her up for me, but let me be on my way though. I'll let you know how it goes when I'm done." I kissed her again before I left.

Once I left the house and started my drive over to the therapist, my thoughts started flooding my head again. This time it wasn't on my relationship or past, it's mainly focused on myself to be honest. I never did normal kid stuff. I never had a sleepover with friends or where invited. No birthday parties other than my family and some of my parents kids parties. Some of my family members that were my age yeah, but only like two out of a lot. The only thing normal was my cousin invited me to her hotel birthday party twice which had some success. I think one of her friends actually liked me because she fell asleep on me like literally a few times. Even waited up for me to come back to bed just because I went to the bathroom. I mean I wasn't muscular then, and was technically a human pillow.

As I pulled up to her office, and went inside, my nerves got really bad. I pretty much feel like I wanted into a big loft type of building to be honest. As I knocked on her door, she opened it.

"So you must be the August I've been hearing about." Damn she's fine. I mean...

"Yeah that's me." I said as she invited me inside. I smelled jasmine incense and some calm music in the background.

"Here take a seat here," I sat down on this comfortable ass couch. Meagan sat up on this large chair sitting crisscross on it." We can talk for a long as you want. I was a therapist for your mom, and we did talk a lot about you. I can't say everything, but she did. So I kind of know some things about you, but I want to see for myself."

I started talking about myself a bit, and things felt smoothly actually. Almost like a normal conversation, and I didn't feel uneasy with it.

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"You seem like an amazing person in my view. So what brings you here for real?"

"I... A lot of things. My biggest one is my relationship. My marriage I once had didn't end well. Everyone was saying that my wife at the time was cheating on me, but I didn't believe it. A few years down the drain, and I don't know if I did something wrong."

"Well August, people fall out of love, but how they express that is different." Megan told me.

"But she could have just divorced me if she did instead of letting me think I'm doing something wrong. It took me to basically give a single droplet of what she did for her to just kick me out our place. The woman that I had sex with that night, we talked about my drug addiction I had, and fucked. She made me promise to stop taking pills that I overdosed twice on. I said yes anyway and I haven't really touched them. When I moved all my things out, I left one thing there because it would fit. My two best friends went to pick it up for me, and the woman she had been cheating on me with was there. The same day."

"So what about this new woman and you?"

"Well, we both found out who our partners were cheating on us with, and it was her girlfriend at the time. We stayed messing around and getting to know each other. Then became really good friends, then she got pregnant. Was it a trap? No, but she wanted a baby. On Christmas last year, she introduced me to her family, and gave a present that had her positive pregnancy test, and an ultrasound. Her dad didn't like the fact that it's me that she is having her first baby with. If you know my mom she must have told you my condition. I questioned her love, but this morning when her dad called her, she made it very clear that she loves me. So now I don't have that doubt anymore." I told her.

"So why are you here?" She asked me.