Sometimes being medicated eases my pain from reality, but doesn't fix anything. Although it sedated my insercuities, that's only temporarily. - August Alvarez
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August Alvarez 10: 00 AM Kiana Place
"I just fuck a bad bitch, I just fucked a bad bitch, I just fucked a bad bitch, and I'm getting a divorce," I remixed the Blue's Clues I just got a letter in my head. This is a surreal feeling, I actually went through with this.
We already have been up for at least fifteen minutes. I've never cheated, but this is somewhat like cheating except more like revenge. I don't feel guilty of what I did or any regret. I mean in some ways I don't have proof that Cheyenne is cheating. I could go through her phone, but anybody can delete pure evidence of what they did. It may be gone from the phone, but not the other person's phone. In a way, I want to like catch her in the act, or see with my own two eyes proof. But I do want this divorce to go through.
"I have a question." Kiana asked.
"And I have a answer."
"Why did you start you know doing drugs? I'm not talking about the weed, but the pills." Kiana asked me.
Taking those pills pulled me into my darkest days. "I didn't want to feel pain anymore. At first it was for the high, my physical pain, and I was getting some good sleep. Then, my wife and I started having problems, and they just numb my feelings. We started having problems really bad. Now, everything that has happened between us just started from that damn job. I mean, she is pulling in damn near two grand a month, but our marriage is shit. This job is really a curse and blessing." I said.
Kiana started running her nails up and down my stomach. Not gonna lie, but it took everything in me not to squirm because it tickled a little bit. Sadly, I am highly ticklish on my sides, and I hope she doesn't know that or find out.
"I was serious about you know making you promise me to stop. I feel like we could be really good friends."
"After we fucked already?"
"Yeah. I know for a fact my girlfriend is cheating, but so far, I'm just milking some of the things she is doing. She has spent a good amount of money on me to make it up to me. I know what she is doing, but two could play that game." I don't think that's gold digging. It's her girlfriend's choice to spend money on material things to keep her with her, but it's also going to be her down fall too.
"That is evil, but smart." I laughed. I couldn't blame her for taking advantage of it. "Seriously though, whoever your girlfriend is, is stupid as fuck."
"I know, now on to some serious things. I really want to see this transformation you were talking about yesterday." I got up from the bed to go get my overcoat. As I stood up, Kiana moved over to the edge, and slapped my ass. "Yass jiggle for me."
I laughed shaking my head going into her living room. Once I got my phone back, I see a bunch of miss calls, facetime calls, and text messages. I got back into bed with Kiana and unlocked my phone.
"Damn, she blew your phone up." she laughed.
"Yeah, but oh well. Here's the pictures." I showed her a few pictures of me before I lost weight.
"Honestly August, I'm glad that you worked on yourself, but you look perfectly fine to me. But it's what you wanted right?" She looked at me with worried eyes. I can tell because Jada looked at me the same when I ended up cutting all communication for everybody for two weeks going through a very dark depression.
"Yeh. At first, I thought it would fix my marriage. I had this thought were if I lost weight, and be this ideal woman for my wife, she would stop what she is doing. After a while of her not really spending time with me or anything, it wasn't about her anymore. I actually felt good about myself for real. Not that I feel good, but I hate the way I look type of feeling. I always embraced it, but deep down inside I hated it. It's hard, I try to keep most of the bad things like sodas and shit out, but I like them. So, I do a bottle soda a week, then everything else I drink is just water, and whatever fruit smoothie I make or get. I don't really eat candy like that, my teeth are sensitive to a lot of sugar. It sucks though. Then I had to rearrange some of my healthy snacks because I'm allergic to peanuts. Which is damn near in every fucking healthy little snack. That shit is beyond irritating." I said going on a mini rant. But it's true though.
12:30 P.M.
"Do you have to leave?" Kiana said wrapping her arms around my neck. Well tried to because I'm 6'3, and she might be at least 5'5.
"Yes, I do. At the end of the day, I still have a wife sadly. You have my number now, so don't be a stranger." I bend down a bit wrapping her waist. She pulled into a kiss that I gladly accept. I squeezed her ass just a bit and she pulled me in even more for a deeper kiss. "I got to go."
"Fine. Are you doing anything tomorrow?"
"Already so soon, you're going to miss me that much. Well, I have to work a double since I already schedule that. I work from one to nine in the morning, then twelve in the noon to nine at night. So, if you gonna rub me down in the morning that would be great."
"Maybe, text me when you make it home though. I don't want nothing to happen to you and this." She said grabbing gently on my covered member.
I shook my head and walked out of the apartment. I took a uber back to what should be home, but it's not. Feeling good for once, I walked into the apartment already greeted by Church. I bent down rubbing his head before I went to the bed room.
"Where have you been, I've been calling you?" Cheyenne yelled at me. I went over the closet not saying anything to her and putting my stuff away.
"August I know you hear me talking to you." She said.
"I know, but this is what I get when I ask you the same thing. Sucks doesn't it. I mean worrying about your well bring when the one you love doesn't answers back, it hurts. What comes around goes around." I said walking into the bathroom.
With Cheyenne hot on my tail I began stripping out of my clothes. Knowing there will be some scratch marks from Kiana I didn't really show my back towards her. I looked down at my stomach and there is some there too. Damn she really marked me up. I tried my best not to leave none on Kiana, but once I got lost in sauce, she ended up with some marks too.
"That's still not answering my question." she said lowly. I can hear the guilt on her voice. I watched her head go down as she said that.
I walked over to her and lifted her chin up to look at me. "I stayed at Jada's place. We all were to fucked up to make it in different places. So, we crashed at hers. You can even ask her yourself. But still, you did the same thing to me, so why when I do the same it's all of a sudden wrong. Make it make sense to me because it doesn't."
I could see her debating on it, but she quickly turned and made her way out the bathroom.
