[COMPLETED] But...I love him

Chapter 14

That night all the members went to bed without hesitation. I stayed in the living room, unable to sleep which was a usual routine. "Are you sure you don't want me to stay with you?" Yunho asked before he had settled himself down.

"Go to bed Yunho, I'll be fine." I replied.

He raised his eyebrows and pointed at me. "If you need me you know where I am." He said.

I felt comfort whenever he offered to stay with me until I slept. Yeosang had told him that I never slept at night due to nightmares, which was true. Even when Yeosang tried to stay with me while I slept, I still woke up screaming. Although whenever Yunho comforted me, I was able to sleep peacefully. I assumed it was because Yeosang and I never had a great sibling relationship when I was younger so I found It weird to find comfort in him. Whereas Yunho had been closer to me than my brother was. He was my best friend and I trusted no one more.

After he had left, I lay on the sofa with a blanket over my shoulders. My mind was restless due to the previous events. The majority of my mind was telling me that I had made the biggest mistake of my life, and yet that tiny portion that told me that it was right to follow my heart seemed to have a bigger impact on me. I hadn't noticed that the corners of my mouth had raised until my cheeks had started hurting. I immediately straightened my face a shook my head to release myself from the buzzing thoughts.

As much as I fought, I couldn't win the fight against sleep. The darkness took over me and guided me to my fears. As soon as I let my guard down, It was as if he was already there. I was back in that dark room. The coldness left goose bumps on my bare arms and my whole body shivered, failing to warm me up. The stone floor left scratches on my feet and knees. It had gotten to the point when I had no tears left to cry, my whole body became numb as I allowed my emotions to leave my mind.

I had almost jumped out of my skin when I heard the loud echoes of footsteps going down the stairs, towards me. I closed my eyes, whispering to myself to fight back against the nightmare that was my reality. My breath quivered as his figure shadowed over me. I was no longer shivering, I was shaking out of fear. My eyes shut even tighter as I prayed. He crouched to my level and said "Open your eyes, Yeosoon."

Being obedient, I slowly opened them, flinching at every deep breath he took. He aggressively cupped my chin and forcefully pulled my head so I was having full eye-contact with him. I was waiting for the tears to stream down my face but they no longer came. He scanned me up and down, removing my arms from covering my body. "Once you lose a couple more pounds I will feed you." He said.

He grabbed the bucket of water and a flannel and started cleaning me with boiling hot water. I gritted my teeth and whimpered every time the cloth came in contact with my skin. He wiped down my naked body without missing a spot. "You need to smell nice for me." He said, smiling.

By grabbing my hair, me pulled me into a standing position. He let me go but due to the fact that I was lightheaded I hit my head on the wall I was leaning against. Every muscle in my body slowly began failing me the longer I stood there.

He measured every inch of me with his fingers. "You have too much fat on your hips." He complained. "Your arms need to be thinner" He gestured me to turn around. I did as I was told. "Your backside is nice but your thighs are too wide for your body. Turn back around." Following his instructions, I faced him, My expression empty "You have big breasts for your age." He sighed and rubbed his hands together. He walked closer to me and stroked my cheek. "Unfortunately, I don't have time for our other activities today so stay put my princess." On that note he kissed my lips, although I stood still.

As a response of my disobedience he grabbed my throat. I gasped for air but breath refused to come to me. His hands slowly got tighter around my neck. My face turned red, my eyes widened, Every ounce of my body failed to support me. I tried to get his hands off me but, strength was not on my side.