[COMPLETED] But...I love him

Part 25

Seonghwa's POV

I got a call from my manager saying the CEO wants to see me. I had a gut feeling that it wasn't good and that feeling became stronger once I reached his office. I knocked on the door and waited patiently for his signal. "Come in." He said.

I peaked my head through the door before the rest of my body followed. I shut the door behind me and took the seat opposite him. I cleared my throat and he stared at me with a straight face. "You wanted to see me sir?" I asked, keeping my head slightly lowered.

His stern expression became exhaustion as he rubbed his temples. "Seonghwa, it's only been two years since your debut and your already causing me an awful lot of trouble."

My breath became short once he spoke. I knew exactly what he was talking about. I bowed my head. "I'm sorry sir."

"The press have been all over me and releasing public reports aren't helping the situation." He stated. "That's why I must apologise for making you do this."

Thats my heart completely stopped beating. "What do mean?" I asked.

"You have to break up with Yeosoon."

No. I can't. That's what I wanted to say but the words in my mouth refused for form sentences. My stomach turned when he said that. I couldn't bare to do it, to hurt her. I was already imagining her face when I broke it the her, I could see the happiness shatter in her eyes. I tried to contain it but my eyes became glossy. She made me a better person, she made me want to live life to the fullest, she made the struggles of being an idol easier, she is everything I wanted and needed. I wasn't prepared to let that go, ever. Yeosoon had already been through so much I couldn't bare to be another person to let her down. "W-what will happen if I don't?" I mustered up the courage to ask.

The CEO clasped his hands together and looked at me with sorrow swimming in his eyes. "You will have to leave ATEEZ."

I nodded stiffly. I stood up and bowed to my boss. "I understand." I said before trudging out of his office. I found myself wondering into the bathroom. I fell to the floor as my body became numb. Guilt continued to flow through me as I tried to build up the bravery to face and leave the love of my life. I didn't even get to tell her I loved her.

Once I opened the door to the dorm I could hear their laughs, causing my heart to break even more. After taking my shoes off I slumped into the living room and took a moment to see the happy environment before I destroyed it. I took one last look at her smile as she looked at me. "What's wrong, baby?" She asked me.

"Can I talk to you in private please?"

I took her into our bedroom and sat her down, facing me. I played with her hands as I tried to grasp the right words to say. "What's on your mind?" She asked.

I shut my eyes before I looked at her and took a deep breath. "I'm breaking up with you."

I saw as her body became numb, her face dropped and her smile became a frown. She looked down and pulled her hands out of mine. She held the same expression as she did in the cafeteria on the day of the interview. Nothing was expressed in her actions.

Tears threatened to fall as she said "You promised. You promised to never leave me." Her voice tone was dipped in disbelief. The only thing I could to was lower my head, I couldn't bare to looks at her like that. "But I understand. I just wasn't enough for Park Seonghwa, world class idol." She stood up and pulled her suitcase from the bottom of her bed and began packing her stuff.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"You expect me to stay here after that. I'm moving into the JYP dorms." She replied.

"Y-you can't leave." I murmured, trying to hold back the regret in my voice.

He slammed her clothes down. "Then give me a reason to stay!" She shouted, tears eventually streaming endlessly down her face.

The waterworks became too forceful and my cheeks became wet. Her tone was desperate and I felt that if I spoke she would hear that in mine too. She revised me for an answer. Yeosoon Scoffed. "Wow... you can't even do that." She sniffled as she continued to pack. All I wanted was to hold her and stop her from leaving but I couldn't, I had no choice.

I flinched as I heard her suitcase zip up and her heavy footsteps became silent. I heard them speak from outside. "Yeosoon? What happened?" Yeosang asked.

"I'm leaving." She replied. That was the last thing she said.

Yeosang stormed into out room and grabbed me by my shirt. "What did you say to her." He yelled. I just looked at him as I sobbed. I allowed Yeosang to shake me as he repeated himself "what did you do to my sister?!"

"Hyung, stop it." San pulled him off me. "Lets talk this out."

"What's there to talk about? Yeosoon just stormed out crying her eyes out because of him!" Yeosang snapped.

"Look at him. He doesn't look any better." San argued, pointing at me. "Yeosoon will be fine, Yunho ran after her."

Jealously tugged at my heart when he said that. I knew Yeosoon and Yunho's relationship was strictly the sibling kind. But he was the one who stopped her nightmares, he was the one to always calmed her when she was upset and Yunho was the one that she always sat next to. I wanted that to be me. I wanted to be the one who ran after her, but I just lost her forever. "I-I'm so sorry, Yeosang." I slurred. "I had to. There was no other way."

"What are you talking about?" Hongjoong asked.

"The CEO. He said if I didn't break up with her he would kick me out of ATTEZ."

My members watched me as I sobbed until there were no tears left to accompany me. "I didn't want to. I promise. I love her so much." I cried.