Reggie's Sister

The funeral

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When I got home, I looked around to see if my parents were home. Luckily for me, they weren't. So I quickly ran upstairs to Reggie's room. As soon as I entered his room, I felt a wave of happiness through my body. I grabbed Reggie's spare guitar. (We don't know what happened to the other one). As I felt the surface of the guitar so many emotions went through my body. I missed him and I missed playing together. I started to lightly strum the guitar. Then I remembered all the times when I would use his spare and he would show me how to play certain notes. As we laughed and played until bedtime.

Me and Reggie haven't played together in a while. Mostly because he was busy with the sunset curve. I kinda wish we spent more time together before he died. To be honest, he would always be gone from time to time. All because he wanted to hang out with his band which I didn't mind but he kept spending more and more time together. There were days when I didn't see him and I was happy for him. He just became distant for a while but he always came back. We never went back to how we used to be but we still love each other( I mean we have to love each other were siblings)

As I played the guitar, I noticed one of the songs me and Reggie wrote. I remember us sitting on the floor in his room playing with different words that came to our heads. I think this one had to be my favorite one we wrote. It was kinda weird and funky. The tunes were everywhere but we made it work. It was like all the time we spent together was written in one song. It's kinda weird to think that just 2 weeks ago we were hugging and talking. That now we're going to be burying him soon. That he is actually gone and there's nothing I can do about it.

The next few days I started to feel better. I actually feel like I'm starting to feel okay. I just keep replaying Reggie saying, "you can do it and I love you " in my head over and over. I mean, everything started to feel as normal as they could until it was the funeral. The day I've been dreading.

My outfit (sorry if you don't like it but I hate dresses so nice black outfits are better)-

Once I got dressed, we got into the car and headed to the cemetery. This place looked so depressing and sad. There was no way in hell that I want my brother to be buried here. He should be buried on the top of a hill covered in sunflowers. Overlooking the sunset each day and where he can see the stars at night. He deserves that and he shouldn't be buried here where it's all gloomy and dark. It's just wrong !!! It's outrageous!!!! I want to scream at them and tell them he can't be buried here but somethings telling me I shouldn't.

As I sat there, I swear I felt like he was right there next to me. Like he was listening to my thoughts and holding me tightly. Like he never left. Like as if he was going to come home after this and I wish it was true. I wish he could hear me. I just want him to be here. I can't do it without him. As the ceremony went on I could feel my heart breaking more and more. It's hard to realize that he's truly gone and that he's being buried. That there are no more hugs, no more I love you, no more music, and no more him.

Once the ceremony was over, I ran to his gravestone. I fell to my knees and started to cry. This isn't real. Please tell me I'm dreaming!!!! As I cried into his grave, my mom came to comfort me but that was Reggie's job. He's supposed to be here. He was supposed to be my happiness but he can't be that when he's dead. He's dead, HES DEAD!!!!!!! I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE!!!!!! Without him, my world turns grey. There's no point in life if he's not here. Every time I think I'm getting better the world always finds a way to hurt me. I can't fake my happiness and I can't do it without him. I won't do it without him.....

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