Reggie's Sister

Regret

Do you think I should keep adding the music??? I like it but I don't know if they match its okay tho :)

WARNING - Death, blood, crying, pain and regret (Just letting you know)

As the door fell, I could see the tears falling down my mother's eyes. She looks like all the life inside her was taken out. I wanted to hold her and comfort her. Tell her I'm right here but I can't. She can't see me. "V/N!!!!" She screams as she falls to her knees. I can see the pain in her eyes as she looks at my dead body. She started to scream my name over and over. As she cries into my chest and holds me close. I could feel so much pain and I just wish I could take it back but I can't. "call the ambulance!!!! PLEASE!!!! there's still time - there has to be more time" She cries out.

As she sobs into my chest. My dad comes running into the bathroom. He stands there in pain for a few seconds. Until he falls right next to me and runs his hands through my hair. I can't watch this and I don't want to but I caused this. What did I do??? I could have stayed. I should have stayed. There are so many things I left unsaid and so many things I left undone. Is there still time for me to come back. Can they wake me up because this has to be a dream??? Am I unconscious or passed out??? PLEASE TELL ME I'M NOT DEAD!!!!! My parents can't take another loss and I wanted to tell Rose that I loved her. I wanted to tell my parents that I loved them and how much I was hurting. I could have got help and I could have survived.

As I look at both of them, I watch them both see the crumpled letter in my hand. They carefully grab it from my hands. My mom holds me in her lap as my dad opens it. Both of them read it and I could see how much I really hurt them. I want to come back, please let me come back to life. There are so many tears coming out of our eyes and all we could do is wait till someone comes. Till someone could save me because it's not too late. It can't be too late!!!

Both of them have blood on their clothes from my cuts. My mom holds me as close as she can and my dad comforts my mother while running his hands through my hair. I should have stayed for them -for Rose. I could have just told them what was wrong. This could all have been avoided but I'm stupid. I'm useless, weak, a terrible daughter, and an even worse friend. The pain all of them are going to feel is way beyond what I have ever felt. Were all are there huddled around my body when I hear the sirens. Then I see flashing lights and paramedics come rushing inside.

I watch as they take my body away from my mother and father. They didn't want to let me go but they had to. The paramedics tried to save me but I think everyone knew I was long gone by now. "V/N, please come back!!!!" I hear my mom scream. "PLEASE!!!!" She cried over and over. I'm right here mom. I'm so sorry for what I did to you. I just want you to hold me and I want to cuddle with you. Please don't give up on me and don't forget me. I'll always be here. Three other paramedics come in and take my body to the ambulance.

I jump into the ambulance and watch my parents cry as the paramedic tries to bring my body back to life. All the way to the hospital, you could hear screams and cries for help. Once we got there, they rushed me inside. My parents try to follow me but they got held back. They both tried to push their way through and they screamed after me in pain. Finally, a nurse came out and told them to sit down. She goes on to tell them that there's no saving me and that she's sorry about their loss. Everyone in the room looks at them pitifully as my mom cries into my dad's shoulder and my dad comforts her telling her, "everything's going to be okay."

If I could only hold them and tell them I'm right here. If they could only see me. I just want to tell them I'm sorry for letting them down and that I know I made a mistake. It's hard to watch everything go down, knowing you're the one who caused the suffering and pain. To just stand there not being able to touch or talk to them. You just observing every detail and hoping that they will be okay. Hoping that they will move on but I don't think they will. Once the crying died down, they got into the car to drive home. Their eyes are all puffy from crying and no one says anything the whole way home.

When they get inside, they head to their room and close their door. I didn't want to intrude so I just went outside to take a walk. I wanted to forget everything. I didn't want the vivid memories of my parents crying over my dead body or the guilt that I felt watching what I caused...

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