Teri Sauhbat Mein ✓

5. You are worst!!!

"Do you have any idea how stupid do you sound Inspector? What the hell are you saying?" Sanskar shouted.

"I am really sorry but we just found that.." Inspector tried say but Sanskar interupted him angrily.

"It's not about finding a piece of information. How can you declare him dead when you didn't get his body inspector? " Sanskar shouted.

"Sir, we did investigation and the cliff was too deep and survival chance is negligible. So, Case was closed." Inspector said.

"You didn't do investigation properly. You just made your own theory and declared him dead and just closed the case. Who are you to decide that, no one can survive. You should have done your work properly but you didn't. I will talk to DCP. You are going to loose this post forever." Sanskar said angrily.

"No sir please, I will find him. We got information that he is alive but where? We still don't know. But I promise you, I will definitely find him in few days." Inspector said.

"I don't want your promises inspector. I want result." Sanskar said.

Inspector nodded and left from there and then only Sanskar think about inspector's words. HE IS ALIVE. The person whom she loves is alive and then all past memories started haunting him. The moments he spend with her. Marrying her, falling in love with her. Winning from his fear and getting normal but this one information shattered everything inside him. He stumbled with realisation that she will go away. He will take her away from him. It pierced his heart and his eyes got wet with tears. Those whom he loved immensely, god took them away. His parents and now Swara, whom he loves more than anything. His love, his happiness didn't stayed for longer. He knew that she was going to leave him after getting her memory back but still it pained. He was habitual to see her face in morning, her beautiful eyes, her smile, her soothing hug, Caring for her, everything about her and now it's going to end. It hurt him beyond limit even with the thought of her leaving. He closed his eyes and let the tear fell from his eyes. Then opened them which were red now. He sniffed and take a deep sigh.

"I have to stay away from her." That's what he thought that day and started to maintain distance from her just the way he used to do in starting. He always gave her fake and lame excuses but he could say, that she is not meant to be him. He knew that he was hurting her with ignorance, when he doesn't express himself to her but she didn't have any idea, what he was going through all the time. It hurt him like dagger piercing his heart to bleed. Still he never left his care toward her. Somehow, his appearance, his expression, touch, eyes, closeness always expressed his love and care for her which he trying so hard to suppress but terribly failed. Few days passed. It was going like that only until tonight when she expressed her love for him.

"How can I do this? I cheated her. I was trying so hard to stay away from her and I... I used her. That's what's she will blame me for when she will get her memory back. I am her husband but I didn't have any right to do this. I didn't have this right. I shouldn't have done this. I love her. I don't regret the most beautiful moment of my life but I just can't bear the sight when she will hate me. May be she will feel disgusted with me. She loves someone else and he is also alive. Don't know where is he but I had put everything to find him, just for her but what I did? I betrayed her damn it!!! How can I lose myself even after knowing this. She is my wife still she is not for me. I was staying away from her since few days so that it hurt less when she will leave but what now? It will be heart-wrenching to see that hate in her eyes. Damn it!! I hate myself." Sanskar's monologue.

He was standing near window, shirtless and just in his lower, lost in his thoughts. It was around 4:30 a.m. in morning. He was going through a hardcore battle between his brain and heart. His conscience was cursing him .