Diary ng assumera

I'll stop the world and melt with you

Gail, Cecil, Brix and I were waiting for other friends namely, Camille, Shell, and Anna. :) We were waiting on our room, some people were still there. And they were playing around, fooling around then his friends asked him out. He said that he can't because he was going out with us. Then the bitches arrived, Shell & Camille then we went already. We looked for Anna.

We were walking, he walked behind me. I stopped for a while because I think that he might get OP. And talked to him.

E: Masaya naman silang kasama, matatawa ka. Pero pag nao-OP ka na. Tumabi ka lang sakin. 

B: Okay. :)

Nauuna ako maglakad, nahihiya kasi ako. Naguiguilty ako, bakit ko ba kasi siya nasama. Bakit ko ba naman to ginusto, pinapahamak ko crush ko e. Grrr, wrong move Elle. Wrong move.

Then, Cam and Shelle went straight ahead Gail and Cecil was looking for Anna. And I was stocked with Brix.

E: Uyy, magsalita ka. Baka mamaya galit ka na pala. Suntukin mo nalang ako bigla. 

B: Hindi ah. :D 

(yung mga emoticon ko, totoo yan)

Then Cecil left kasi tinatawag siya nung club president nila. Magkita nalang daw kami sa front gate.

Then, Cam and Shell went for her.

So it was me and him and Gail. We waited for Anna and she told us that she can't come. So went too.

Conversation naming tatlo.

Mabagal kasi talaga maglakad si Brix, hinawakan ko yung wrist ni Brix to somehow make him walk faster. (Elle, not again. Hindi ko nanaman napigilan) Tapos binitawan ko, binigay ko kay Gail yung kamay niya and said "Gail, hawakan mo nga yang alaga mo! Ang bagal maglakad!!!"  

B: todo na 'to. 

E: Buti hindi ka nala-late. 

B: Gumigising ako ng maaga para hindi ako malate.

Then out the school we went.

B: Umuwi kaya muna ako, magpapalit lang ako. 

G: Wag na ang arte mo! 

B: Susunod nalang ako. 

E: Pano ka susunod? 

B: ID 

E: Anong ID?  

B: ID mo. 

E: Hindi ka na makakasunod. Ano Gail, papayagan ba natin 'to? 

G: HINDI

I walked fast again, naiwan ko si Gail and siya, I was thinking. Should I let him go now? Should I? Naiintindihan ko naman siya. Sige, but I'm hoping na sana sumama siya. So I stopped.

I waited for Gail, and I told her.

E: Gail, sabihin mo okay lang kahit umuwi na siya. Maiintindihan natin. 

G: Yung totoo, sasama ka ba o hindi? Okay lang. 

B: Ewan ko nga e, pagiisipan ko muna. 

E: Magisip ka na.

That moment, I was upset. I wasn't like that. I do smile, everytime I can. But when I said those to Gail, it really did broke my heart. It really did, I was hurt. Not because he was leaving, and ashamed of being with us. But it's that, I've planned for this, I've prepared for this. For him. That's the truth. I didn't go to the clinic because I wanted to be on a jeep with him. Our maid knows that, she knows everything. So I was walking fast again, alone. Nauuna kasi sila Shell and Camille, and then me. And Brix, Gail and Cecil was behind me. Malayo actually, basta nasa likod ko. Btw, nakita na pala na namin si Cecil, I told her "Babi, kausapin mo si Brix, baka ma-OP. Then, tumawid na ako, (PS. I don't know how to cross a road, pero street lang yung tinawid ko actually) Nauuna ako sakanila, mabilis ang lakad basta gusto ko kasi magisip.