Once A Fangirl

Chapter 8

Galaxy

I am so nervous, alright. But they made feel comfortable. They were good at it. They were like a comfort zone.

I told them my story. The part of the accident I only remembered. How I forgot about them. How shocked I was when I entered my room. How curious I was. Everything.

“It's so frustrating not to remember a thing. So I searched your name on the internet. It's not hard to find infos about you. You're that popular. And after finding infos,” I smiled and looked at them, “I became a fan.. for the second time around.”

Tumahimik ang lahat. Para bang pinag-iisipan nila yung sinabi ko.

“Wow..” ani JK na nakatitig sa'kin, “Thank you.”

Medyo natawa ako sa reaksyon nya. Para bang ngayon pa sya nakarinig ng ganoong kwento. He's that innocent. He's adorable.

And that smile.. that bunny smile I saw earlier. Yes, JK is that guy I saw earlier before entering Tita and Zach's room.

Ngumiti ako nang nakatanggap ako ng iba't-ibang reaksyon sa kanila. Nakakatuwa sila.

“Cheer up. I hope our music helps you in your hardships.” ani Suga.

I looked at him. He's so cool.

“Your music did. Instead of worrying about the problem, I should just go on with my life. There is more than that.”

I shouldn't dwell on that. I admit, nung may naalala akong parte ng aksidente ko, may mga gabing napapanaginipan ko iyon. Nightmare sa akin yun. May mga pagkakataong nananatili iyon sa isipan ko. But for the sake of my health, winakli ko ang mga iyon sa isipan ko.

“Yea, life goes on.” ani V ng nakangiti sa akin. So handsome.

“Fighting!” ani j-hope naman. Oh, sunshine.

“We are here for you.” Jimin said, smiling at me

Nakangiti ko silang tinignan isa-isa. Nangingilid ang luha ko. Napaka-positive nila at nakakahawa yun. That's the fighting spirit!

“You inspires us with your story. It gives me idea for our next song on our next comeback.” ani RM

Ngumiti ako. What happened to me is like a blessing in disguise now.

Tumayo si Jungkook at pumalakpak ng dalawang beses. “OK OK! Let's get it!”

Natawa kaming lahat. The baby, uwu.

“Don't lose hope. Everything will be alright.” ani Jin at tinapik ang balikat ko.

“Thank you.” I said sincerely, “I won't forget this day. Thank you so much. I'll surely enjoy the concert tomorrow night.”

“See you.”

“We'll look for you then.”

I smiled. Tumayo na ako.

“Ahmm, can I have a selfie with you?” nahihiya man ay tinanong ko pa rin.

“Sure, sure!”

Bahagya akong lumapit sa kanila hawak na ang cellphone ko. Nagsi-pwestuhan naman sila katabi ko at sa likod ko naman iyong iba.

“Let me take the pix.” ani RM kaya inabot ko sa kanya ang cellphone kong naka-set na sa camera.

“Let's do the V sign. Peace.” ani V

Yun nga ang ginawa naming lahat.

“Say kimchi!”

Ngumiti ako sa camera habang naka-peace sign. Pagkatapos ay wacky naman. Ang kulit. Limang shots din iyon bago kami tumigil.

Umayos ako ng tayo at nilingon sila. Time to say goodbye, Bless. I know kelangan pa nilang mag-prepare, rehearse and all. So I really need to go. I don't want to be a bother.

“I'll go ahead. Thank you. And uh, Welcome to the Philippines. Enjoy your stay here. Let's set fire on the venue tomorrow night. Fighting! I do believe in your galaxy.”

Ngumiti silang lahat sa akin at nagsabihan pa ng uplifting words. Nakakatuwa. Nagpaalam na rin sila isa-isa at silang lahat pa ang naghatid sa akin sa mismong labas ng pinto ng room nila tita. Binuksan ko iyon at bago pumasok ay nagpaalam pa ulit muna kami. Nakita ko ring nagsitakbuhan sila papasok. Natawa ako.

Sa mga nakalap kong info about their concerts, dumadating sila sa mismong araw ng concert nila. Ngayon, ang aga nila at bukas pa naman ang concert.

“Kamusta?” bungad sa'kin ni Kaye pagkapasok ko.

“They're great! They're genuine! You know, I saw JK earlier and ignored because I thought of their privacy! And moment later, I got a chance to talk to them! As in all of them! It's like a dream come true!” kulang na lang magningning ang mga mata sa sinabi ko.

That moment was so dreamy.

Nilingon ko si Kaye nang wala syang response sa sinabi ko. Naabutan ko syang nakangiting nakatitig sa'kin.

“What?” kunot-noong tanong ko.

“You really is a fangirl,” aniya ng nakangiti pa rin. “by heart.”

“Huh?”

Nilapat nya ang hintuturo nya sa dibdib ko, kung nasaan ang puso ko. “Nananatili kang fangirl nila rito.”

Napamaang ako sa sinabi nya.

“You just lost a part of your memory. But not your being a fangirl to them.” umatras sya ng konti. “Take a deep breath and feel it in your heart.”

Napahawak ako sa puso ko. Take a deep breath and feel it in my heart.

“You maybe searched for them out of curiosity, but you actually found them in your heart.”

So deep.

“Let's eat the pizza first before leaving. Oh, Bless. Saan ka ba nagsusuot-suot dito sa hotel, hah?”

Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Zach. Panira talaga 'to ng moment, e.

KINAIN muna naming apat ang pizza bago lumabas na. I took a last glance at Room 713. Busy people, yea.

Si Tita Sherie na lang ang humarap doon sa receptionist at hinintay na lang namin sya sa lounge area. Nang matapos ay giniya ko sila kung saan naka-park ang sasakyan.

Nang mailagay na ng maayos ang kanilang gamit at makasakay ay kaagad na kaming umalis sa hotel. I took a glance back and smile. Napatingala rin ako. A sunset. t'was a pretty shades of pink, purple, and blue. Reminds me of Love Yourself.

Hinatid namin sila sa bahay nila, same village sa amin. Nandoon na rin pala ang parents ni Kaye at sa'kin pati si Kuya Jai.

“Mabuti naman at maayos ka na ngayon, Bless.”

“Oo nga e. Noong nakaraang linggo kasi dinala namin yan sa hospital dahil nahimatay. Buti't maayos na talaga ngayon.” ani mommy

Nagkamustahan at nagkwentuhan pa. Doon na rin kami kumain ng hapunan. Gumagabi na. Lumapit ako sa bintana at hinawi ang puting kurtina. Napangiti ako. Starry night. Naalala ko ang design ng kisame sa room ko, Milky Way Galaxy. Galaxy. That reminds me of BTS.