forever my baby

𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧

i grab my smoothie and walk over to his desk and sit on it. "just like i told you. i fucked everything up. he said he couldn't be the guy to help me. he said he was too good for me." i say like it was nothing. i was pretty much emotionless at this point. liam sat there in his chair listening. "i mean i knew that. of course he was."

i keep drinking. "then what happened?" he scoots his chair closer. "i don't know, i got really depressed. i am depressed. i know they told you. i panicked and was bawling my eyes out by his front door." i sit the cup down and just wait for his response. "yeah they did. i believe mason breaking up with you triggered some past emotions."

i shake my head. "triggered, yeah exactly." i hold my arms. he stands up and walks in front of me.

"it's because you love him. i know how much he meant to you." he puts his hand on my shoulder and i look up at him. i roll my eyes. "i don't want to talk about this. i think. i'm very depressed. i've been in my room for days just staring at the wall."

"we don't have to talk about anything you don't want to. what do you want to talk about?"he asks.

i shrug. "i don't know what else to talk about though. but i guess i do want to talk about it, i wouldn't of left my room if i didn't."

i look towards the floor. talking to liam helps. but i didn't want to relive what happened. my brain was already replaying it in my head all day for the last few days. "i'm done begging people to stay. i admit defeat. i just want to be with my daughter." i cross my arms. she was the only thing on my mind. she was the only person i needed. i didn't need parker or mason. just her.

"i just don't know what to do now. he was my whole life. i feel so empty." i say and he shakes his head. "see that's the thing. he's not your whole life, you're life is barely beginning. high school, parker, mason are all a small portion of your life." his voice changed.

"i'm lost! i have no idea what to do. i want to see him but i don't think that would help me. i just want to talk to him."

liams looks down and i follow his stare. he looks at my bare finger. "you took it off?" he asks still staring at it. "he broke up with me, why the fuck would i keep it on? it's another reminder of what i lost." i stand up but he sits me back down. "i'm sorry, it was just an observation."

i sit there not even sure what to say or do. "what would you do if you were me?" i finally ask. he looks down at me. "what would i do?" he asks. "yeah."

"if i were you, i would take however much time i needed to adapt to this new life change. i would realize that i'm only twenty years old with my whole life ahead of me. maybe being single wouldn't hurt, you have people that will support you."

i nod and sit there.

"i feel unlovable liam."

"there's so many people in your life that love you. your parents, your friends, people you haven't even met yet. don't let the situation you're going through tell you that you're unlovable because it's not true."

i cry immediately. if only i could actually believe that.

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a/n: um LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO JESUS CHRISTTTTT. y'all i edited this chapter and cut the part where liam kisses bri because i'm delusional and mental to even write that in the first place. not on my watch! i wont let bri get any worse than she already is.