What comes next? -Sequel to college years-lams fanfic

Chapter 18

John POV

I feel so bad. I mean I hated her for so long because of something she couldn't control and now she's gone. I mean sure it's been like 15 years or something but still. She doesn't deserve this! It's not right. She was so young and she had her whole life ahead of her But now her time is up, did she do enough? will someone tell her story?

My dear John,

I know there was a good while when hated each other, nearly killed each other and could be in the same room but I hope you can forgive me for that and not let it be you're memory of me. What I did to you and Alex is the most horrible thing a person could do. I wish I had gone to the doctor sooner, maybe then you wouldn't have hated me or I wouldn't have done it. You and Alex are the cutest couple I know (don't tell laf and Herc). When I'm gone please don't be sad. Don't stop living your life. Remember Philip needs you, Alex needs you, Peggy needs you, we all need you. You've been through more that I could ever imagine. You put up with so much from you're dad and Charles and you don't deserve any of it. You've proven that living is harder than dying. Dying is easy, most of the time it's quick and once it's over it's not you who grieves it. Living is hard, you go though so much pain and sorrow. You're left with the remains of people that escaped from life. You are a constant reminder to me that I'm so lucky. I may have died young but I don't know half the hardship you've been though and that's one of the biggest reasons I look up to you John. You inspire so many people everyday and I hope you continue to do that.

Yours admirably, Elizabeth Schuyler.

I finish reading through the letter, I wipe my eyes as I fold it back up. I look around to see everyone else in tears. We all know she was the last person that deserved to die but here we are sitting around her. Well I suppose it's not really her but her memory will live on.

Alex POV

I don't want to open the letter. If I open it, it means she's really gone. I don't want to admit that. I take a deep breathe and open it.

My dearest Alexander,

You mean more to me than anything in this world. I'd choose your happiness over mine anytime. I know some of the things I did to you were horrible, I even broke you and John up at one point. I'm so sorry for any and all harm I've caused you. I know you're married to John and You have Philip and everything but I don't think I would ever forgive myself, even in the afterlife, if I didn't tell you this. I love you Alexander. I wish it were in my power to convince you in actions rather than words that I love you, but I can't. I would see you every day I remember the first day I saw you, You were so lost and the moment I saw you I thought "What the heck I gotta do you be with you?", I was helpless. Perhaps I'm glad I'm gone now. I'm finally free of the daily nightmare of seeing you happy with John. It breaks my heart and it always will but I will and would never intentionally break you up and I could never hurt John like that. I hope you remember be for the good times we had, not the bad. you were pretty much my best friend except for Angelica. You've been looking after your self since you were a kid, you don't have to anymore, let John take care of you. He wants to. Don't hind yourself, don't act tough, just talk about it when your feeling down. My love take your time, I'll see you on the other side.

Yours fearlessly and forever, Elizabeth Schuyler.

By the time I finish reading everyone else has also finished. We sit in silence for a couple of minutes, thinking about her and her life. She deserved so much more. Too soon a nurse walks in. "I'm so sorry but now that miss Schuyler has....departed we're going to have to ask you to leave." She says.

We all just nod and slowly walk out silently. We all get in our cars and drive back to our houses not really wanting to do or say anything. John drives. "I-I'm gonna call Philip." I sniff.

"Hey Pa, Lunch is almost over so I gotta go to class soon, what's up?" He asks happily.

"Um.. c-could you ask George's parents if you could stay over tonight?" I ask trying to let the sadness show in my voice.

"Yeah sure...is everything ok?"

"Y-yeah everything's fine, I'll fill you in tomorrow. Oh and please don't try to talk to Peggy, Angelica, Laf or Herc. If you need anything text or call me or your dad." I say.

"Ok... what about Eliza?" He asks and I let out a little sob.

"Y-Yeah leave her alone as well. I'll see you tomorrow ok?" I reply.

"Ok." He says and hangs up.

I put my phone down and look out the window, You always think it's gonna be rainy an cold on days like this but it's sunny. Heaven just got it's angle back I guess. John puts his hand on my leg, "D-Do you wanna talk about it?" He asks.

John POV

"D-Do you wanna talk about it?" I know this is harder on him than on me, which is saying a lot.

"No." He says sharply, I pull back my hand.

"Alex...." I say as I pull into the garage.

"I don't wanna talk about it and especially with you!" He snaps and runs into the house. I sigh and sit back in my seat. I sit for a couple of minutes and let the tears drip down my face. I eventually get out of the car and into the house where I find Alex has locked himself in our room.

"Alex unlock the door!" I shout threw the door.

"Go away John." He snaps back.

"You're forgetting this his my house too and that's my bedroom!" I reply.

"Fine." He unlocks the door and I walk in.

"Why are you mad at me?" I ask.

"I'm not mad at you." responds.

"Well it sure seem-"

"I'm not fucking mad at you!"

A/N Sorry bad way to end the chapter but oh well I hope it wasn't too bad.