What comes next? -Sequel to college years-lams fanfic

Chapter 26

Trigger Warning- Abuse, Suicide

Philip POV

I walk into my room and see Dad's favorite baseball cap and a note.

Philip,

I'm sorry I didn't know what to give you so I decided on the hat. It's the hat I wore when we asked Peggy to be our surrogate. I'm so sorry I had to leave, it' the last thing I want to do but it's for your own safety. I love you so much, you're the best son someone could ask for but unfortunately for you your parents aren't that responsible. You had far from a 'normal childhood' but that's part of the reason your you. I know this is gonna be hard on you but, I'll text you once a month and we can meet up. You need to be strong for your Pa, he's gonna act like he's fine but he's not. He never is. Don't let him go in rooms alone with sharp objects and if there's a storm just tell him it a dream and your there. I know you shouldn't have to do this, but If either of you die then I would have done this for nothing. I love you Philip and I'll see you soon.

John Laurens-Hamilton.

I walk out of my room and see Pa on the couch in one of Dad's hoodies. He puts his head in his hands, he doesn't notice me. I don't think I've ever seen him like this. "Are you ok Pa?" I ask and he looks up,

"Oh, Philip. I'm doing ok... what about you?" He asks,

"You don't have to lie. I'm the one who gets to see him every month I know your not ok." I say.

"You're right, I'm not. There was so much I could have done. and we both know he doesn't deserve any of this. He's gonna be stuck with Charles for probably the rest of his life, and he's gonna get hurt and I'm never gonna see him again." He sobs,

"We can go to the police though, they can track his phone or something" I suggest.

"It's worth a shot I guess but I'll call Hercules I don't think I can drive" He says.

Alex POV

About half an hour later Herc, Laf, Peggy and Angelica arrive at our house. "Where his is he?!" Peggy screams as she runs up the stairs which only makes me cry even more,

"H-he's with Charles." I mange to choke out. Peggy starts crying and Laf looks hurt and scared, everyone else I just in shock.

"What happened? We have to find him!" Peggy yells.

"Charles blackmailed him. He get's to see Philip once a month I don't know what the deal is with you guys but we just wanna go down to the police station." I say,

"Then we have to go now!" Laf says and we all climb into Hercs car.

*One month later*

Apparently John and Charles have been moving a lot so the police say it'll be hard to find them but they will eventually, Every day's gotten harder. I can barley function without him, I can't work so I got fired, I hardly sleep and I only eat when Philip forces me to.

Philip got to see him. He said he looked bad, like his hair was a mess and he hand a couple of burses and hickeys and stuff. Apparently it hasn't been to bad but I'm pretty sure he just said that so I didn't get to upset. "He said he still loves you." Philip adds. I smile weakly and nod. I don't know if that makes this better or worse.

I just can't stand thinking about how's he's somewhere with Charles right now, probably in pain. He can't talk to anyone and he has no freedom. He just has to go with Charles and do whatever he wants. It's not fair, he shouldn't be punished for keeping me and Philip from being murdered. It's not fair that I never get to see him again. it's not fair that Peggy and Lafayette can't see their best friend. It's not fair that Philip doesn't get to have his Dad around. It's just not fucking fair.

John POV

"I'm sorry! it won't happen again I swear!" I try to plead with Charles but he keeps kicking me. I was wearing one of Alex's old hoodies and he got mad. I knew it would make him mad. I knew I shouldn't have worn it but I miss Alex so much. I've seen Philip once but it's not the same, he looked sad the whole time and he said Alex was doing ok but I know he's not. I just wanted to feel like he was with him and now Charles is gonna through it away.

"I told you to leave everything to do with him behind!" He yells and gets down next to me and punches me in the jaw. There's blood in my mouth and I think he bruised my ribs or something. "Clean up you're getting blood on the floor." He say, kisses me on the forehead and walks away. He always says he loves me. There are times when he doesn't hurt me but I know he doesn't love me, he loves the Idea off me.

Once I've cleaned up the floor I go to have a shower. It hurts to walk, it hurts to move, It hurts to breathe, just everything hurts. I step into the shower and look at all the new bruised, nothing to bad.

Every day gets harder. I miss Alex so much. He's the only thing I think about but when every I do it makes me even more sad because I know I'll probably never see him again. Eventually Philip's gonna grow up and go to college and he's gonna drift away from Alex and he's gonna stop wanting to see me so I'll have no contact with either of them.

Every day get's more painful. I do everything I can to make Charles happy so I don't get hurt or so he doesn't hurt Alex or Laf or Peggy or Herc or Angelica or Philip but I always do something wrong. I hate it here. We move from one place to another he claims it's because he likes traveling but he's scared he's gonna get caught. I wish he would get caught but he won't.

He knows how to hide from the police, he know how to make sure I don't tell anyone. It's not like we never go out. He forces me on dates, he goes out with his friends and I can go out with Philip once a mouth. He's even gonna let me see Peggy and Laf next month if I don't fuck up to much.