Blood Runs Cold - - Okumura Eiji Fanfiction

Chapter 15 (Asami's POV)

Eiji looks at me, I wait for what he's going to say.

"Asami, lets go for a drive, I'd like to talk to you in private."

Eiji says then walks up to me and grabs my arm. 

We get in the car and exit the residence.

"Where should we go , Eiji?"

I ask him gently.

"Lets go to the beach closest to here."

Eiji answers gently back.

We finally get to the beach, which is deserted considering the fact that its winter.

Eiji runs to the edge of the cold water and screams as loud as he can and as long as he can.  He then falls down on his knees and then sits down, throwing his legs out.

I go and sit next to him , and furrow his hair.

"Whats wrong Eiji?"

I ask him carefully.

Eijis head is slumped but then he raises his head and looks up into the sky , his head tilted all the way back, pushing his hair all the way back. His eyes, his face, they all look sad. His eyes are screaming.

"I feel like i'm about to break, Asami, You know it too , right, that i'm using Ren. That I slept with him last night.  I'm taking advantage of his feelings for me.  Also my nightmares are getting worse, the flashbacks are more frequent. I keep getting sick, I also keep getting calls from Eibe.  I also don't fully trust Ren right now, He's definetly hiding something about the Liasion Group and if he knows something and hid it, I can't trust him. Going to New York in 2 years, I need to trainm and so do those two, I know we will run into Lee Yut-lung , Sing, possibly even Ash.  Also the Ozaki's , The Fang, The Aizawas  and the Russian groups.  Honestly, even Blanca , might be present at this meet up.  Also the New New York group, that has moved in also. 
It'll be a Dangerous move.  My plan in going , is to also put our ground down there as well.  Which in all reality might piss Yut-Lung off.  
I'm wanting revenge, I want to know the full truth. I also want to keep this group going for you , Asami."

Eiji finishes talking looking more and more like the boss i know he's capable of being. But I realize, he's already thought of me as the boss still.

"Eiji , you are the Boss now, I'm not above you even if i'm your coach. We made a deal,  I will make you stronger, and I haven't taken it easy on you . It's been a year and a your family memorial is coming up in a few days, I know the flashbacks are a problem, you've already been through it once for real, why do you have to suffer , but honestly its because those memories can't be unseen.  
Eiji , when it comes to Ren, I also think he's holding something back, so I'm also concerned. As for using him. So, what? Right now Eiji, its clear your trying to grasp for a feeling, any feeling to make it to the time of revenge.
You're impatient , but , that's natural.  
If Ash is still alive, your emotions and focus will shatter, that's why you've started using Ren, but I believe Ren already knows this Eiji, .
Also with the New York meet in two years, I think its a great idea, slso enough time to train and fully make plans for everything.  Eiji , I know you can't see it, but, you, every day show growth. You've become great at the Katana and knife fighting and your martial art skills are improving every day.  Should we move on to the bow next, so you can have aim and target practice, in case you need to use a gun, in New York.
We could even get water guns and have a fun day even."

I finish and see Eiji's face completely steady and with a wide eyed expression.

"Is it really okay , that I'm the Boss, I seriously think everything Yut-Lung said to me might be effecting me .  Also my revenge .  Is it okay if I endanger everyone for my own selfish desire.
I am Okumura Eiji. The Heir and Leader of the Okumura Group.
I am a Boss of a Yakuza Group now.
I guess before the meet in two years, I should focus on those closest to me and the groups we have allies first."

Eiji finishes talking sounding confident.

"Correct, Eiji, no, Boss."

I say 100% serious.

"Lets drink when we get back home, Boss."

I say again brightly.

Eiji laughs.