Blood Runs Cold - - Okumura Eiji Fanfiction

Chapter 21 (Ren's POV)

It's been a week since I heard about Eiji and Asami's sparing and today is Eiji's family memorial. It's officially been a year since, Eiji found his family like that.

Eiji's apperence is dark, but also venomous today.

I've just gotten back from doing business work and going to visit the other groups to invite them to a gathering in 3 months from now, here at out home. 
Eiji has started making moves, but today will be one of the most bitter days and sad for him, since then.

I walk up to Eiji, who looks sick but is holding himself together in front of everyone.

"Eiji, should we go for a drive or go for a walk outside?"

As I ask, Eiji looks up at me as if his gaze was begging  to escape this reality for him.

I know Eiji hasn't even tried to talk about his feelings about this topic.  His family found dead by him.  The imagery that haunts him, his true emotions and thoughts have been locked away.

A part of me wants to shatter the walls he has built. 
But another part of me knows shattering his wall will possibly break him and I don't want to see Eiji collapse.

They say time heals old wounds, but wounds made to the heart tend to leave deeper scars to the heart that a wound made to the flesh.

I quickly grab Eiji's hand and lead him out of the house and into the wintery outside, a world of pure white snow.  A beautiful imagery, but in reality this cold ice shows no flowers , no colorful leaves on the trees. The tree's sleep as if dead through this cold snowy winter as if it has cast a spell.

This spell is a time where Eiji's family became lost forever.  But Eiji, also is stuck in this hazy blizzard like cold, he can't escape.

My thoughts only think of what could save Eiji from this Icy Spell.

But honestly the only person capable of saving Eiji from this , is Ash.

Ash meaning cinders may not be wrong.

But for Eiji , Ash is like a sunflower blooming in adversity.  A light that can calm his heart.

I start to run with Eiji still holding my hand while starting to run with me.

Then he stops me.

I turn around to see tears flowing like streams down his face.

He then falls down onto his knee's breathing heavily.

He's hyperventilating! I quickly bend and pick him up and then wipe his eyes, then pick him up and then carry him to my car and then reach into my cars glove compartment and grab a brown paper bag and then tell him to breath into it.

After he calms down. he looks down , then back at me while I'm driving towards the beach.

Letting him see the ocean, tends to let him breath, as if the ocean is his connection, a untying knot in fate has been made, and the ocean connects Eiji back to Ash.  The only connection from then, he needs to keep going.

We get to the ocean and Eiji gets out and then he walks to the edge of the water, and then collapses to his knees again.

I stay behind him as he cries.

"Mom, Dad, little sis.... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. For so many things.  It's my fault your'e dead, but I'm also sorry , I don't regret meeting Ash and Everyone in New York.  You, told me to go and to not to live regretting... Mom, I know you left this life, wanting a everyday normal life for us.  But, please don't be disappointed, no matter what I do.
These people that did this to you guys, I will not let then get away with it.
And, I swear, I will not regret what i'm going to do either..."

My eyes grow wide as I listen to Eiji say all of this into the air and into the cold ocean like sky.

I, then go down on my knees and wrap Eiji into my arms and he turns into my chest and cries his heart out.

"Eiji, please , tell me what I can do for you right now?"

I ask Eiji while patting his head.

Eiji calms himself down, then wipes his face and then looks up at me.

"Just hold me tonight. Just don't leave my side till I tell you to."

I hear Eiji and a slight tear of happiness but sadness leaves my eyes, then I lean down and kiss Eiji.

I know you will leave me Eiji, But I love you.

What will happen in the future is the future.  But I hope you, Eiji, will understand I will always be here by your side weather as  lover, friend, or simply a guard.

You seem like a fragile firefly sometimes, your light goes on and off and your someone who gives off a following light that leads oneself through darkness.  But, I want you to be able to find or see your firefly as well. But that's only if that firefly stops being so stubborn.

Since I know your firefly is Ash.  But, will he be able to follow the changed you.  That's the only question that worries me, as well as you too, huh, Eiji?

We then head home to ease our souls.