Afraid (Lesbian Teacher Student - Alex Vause/Piper Chapman aka Laura Prepon & Taylor Schilling (OITNB)

Chapter 3

What should I do? Give it to her and let her see what's on my mind and my an idiot out of myself or not give her my notebook and get in a lot of trouble? What if she calls my parents, that'd be a hell. They'd kill me, this isn't happening. This fucking dilemma.

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A minute has passed and I said nothing. I don't know what to say. OR TO DO.

''Sorry Miss. But, I don't think you should see it, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't like it and it's private'' I said with quivery voice.

''Hand it. Now. And I'm pretty sure if something like that was private you wouldn't bring it into a public place or similar'' she says sternly.

''I tried to be polite, but if you are going to act like a bitch then I am too. I don't care if this is a public place or not, if I feel like writing and to express my feelings I'll do it right in that moment. I'd rather write something that will help me than to listen to a bitch teaching us usless boring lessons that no one cares about'' I said with a loud, harsh tone and I don't know where this came from. I shouldn't have take it out on her. I feel guilty but yet good about this. Someone had to say that.

I looked her in the eyes and I can see that she's hurt and my guiltiness raises up. Shit.

''OUT OF MY CLASSROOM. NOW! AND YOU HAVE DETENTION AFTER SCHOOL UNTIL I SAY YOU CAN LEAVE. IF YOU DON'T COME, I'LL MAKE SURE TO FAIL YOU NO MATTER WHAT. I SWEAR. I WILL NOT LET SOME STUPID CHILD LIKE YOU TO BE SO DISRESPECTFUL TO ME OR TO ANYONE. NOW OUT!'' she says as loud as she could. Now I'm pretty scared of her.

Before I stood up I said ''I ain't bovvered!'' After saying it, I stood up and stormed out of the classroom.

I'm so mad. Why was she only a bitch to me and nice to the others? Because of the day we have met and the first school day? I might ask her after school.

The bell rang and I know what it means. The classes are over and I've got detention. I see Bay and other friends going out of classroom and they wish me good luck and say they'll text me later. I miss Bay, I need to talk with her and tell her what's going on, I feel like I'm lying to her and it's eating me out. Speaking of eating, I'd surely eat Miss Prepon, if you know what I mean ;)

The last student left the classroom's door open so I slowly walk till there not knowing what to expect. I'm acutally afraid.

As I slowly walked into the room I checked where is she and she is there sitting in her chair behind the desk. She is wearing glasses and reading some book. I sat in my usual place, back in the classroom and she says ''Get up and sit in front''. I'm still quite and I sit in the middle, second desk.

I'm just here sitting and looking what time is it and only 10 mins have passed and I have to be here until she says so I texted kindergarten that I'll be late today. ''No phones allowed.'' she says and I still say nothing. I start to bounce my legs up and down because I'm nervous and this is awkward. I don't feel comfortable.

''Stop it'' she says and I reply annoyed ''Sorry, would you like me to stop breathing too, huh?!''

She gives me that look, the one that says 'Be quite and shut up'.

''Oh don't give me that look'' I say.

''What look?'' she asks.

''The look that says Be quite and shut up. I can't be quite this is useless and awkward. I don't feel comofrtable and my anxiety is raising. This has no point. I could be doing something helpful right now if I wasn't here.'' I say pretty much annoyed even more.

''Like what? Get drunk, sleep around and be a badass?'' she says and it hurted me because she thinks that I'm like others.

''Woah, thanks for thinking that low about me. And, no. First of all, for your information I don't sleep around nor I drink, get wasted, do drugs and stuff like that. I actually have to pick up my 4 year old twin siblings from kindergarten that's why I used my phone during detention so I could text kindergarten that I'll be late to pick them up. They'll probs be mad and sad coz' I'm late so I'll have to make it up to them, I have to make a dish, clean the house, play with them, study with them, do my studying, also bath them and much more. I hope you're happy now.'' I spit it out madly.

Her jaw dropped and she is in a small shock. ''Wow, I'm sorry. I didn't know. You can leave'' she says like she cares.

''No Miss, it's fine. I'll finish my detention and leave when it's the right time. I deserved it, I was and still am a bitch and sorry for saying that to you in front of everyone. It was wrong and I shouldn't have reacted that way. You don't have to show mercy to me now.'' I say sadly but I manage to put a fake smile on my face.

''No, I said go. Please, call me today because I need to talk with you'' she said nicely.

Is she bipolar or what? Damn, woman, waht are you doing to me??

I say ''Thank you, bye Miss'' and smile.

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