Afraid (Lesbian Teacher Student - Alex Vause/Piper Chapman aka Laura Prepon & Taylor Schilling (OITNB)

Chapter 12

I haven't had a sleep, again. I'm stressing so much latetly and I don't know how to deal with it. Keeping it all inside myself is the best thing to do. Not gonna bother anyone with my life and problems, it's nothing comparing to other people's lives. There are people in the world who need more help than me, so I'll be fine, I hope. I let Malik alone and it's already 9am and no school today, a free day. I'm going to try find a nanny for Tasha and Malik while I'm at school. So, while reading newspapers and looking for nanny, I heard small footsteps coming down. He's awake.

''Morning, Mal'' I say with a husky, morning voice and give a half smile.

He says nothing and goes in the living room to watch T.V in his PJ. Guess he's still mad at me.

I see an ad in newspaper, an old lady looking to babysit. Sounds fine to me, I'm going to call her because there aren't many people looking to babysit except teenagers and I surely don't want some teenager to babysit them, I need someone whose going to take care of them properly while I'm not at home.

I called the number and we've talked about 5-10 minutes. She's starting to work tomorrow. She sounds as a sweet lady and I'm glad I found someone quickly.

''I'm going to pick up Tasha, do you want to come with me?'' I ask him.

He shakes with his head.

I've texted Jessica's mom, the girl's mom where Tasha stayed, and when I drove there I saw Tasha waiting with Jessica's mom and Maurice.

I get out of the car and say to Jessica's mom ''Thank you for letting her to sleep over'' I say with a smile, ''did you have fun, Tasha?'' I ask.

She seems happy and nods. ''Okay, say thank you to Jessica and Miss Maurice.''

''Thank you Miss and Jessica. Tay, we should make a sleepover too so Jessie and I could have fun again.'' she says excitedly.

''Yeah, sounds like a deal if that's fine with Miss Maurice.''

''Ofcourse, maybe next weekend? And, please, call me Maurice.'' she says and smiles.

''Okay, bye.'' I smile.

As we were driving back home, Tasha was talking about the sleepover and everything they did.

''Hey, Natasha, Malik and I had a small fight yesterday night so please don't tease him and don't too much about the sleepover in front of him because he'll get jealous, okay?''

''Okay.''

We entered the house and my mouth droped.

''WHAT DID YOU DO, MALIK? JESUS!'' I yelled.

''I'm so, so sorry. I was hungry and didn't know when you'll come back so I decided to make cereals, but'' he tried to tell the reason but I interrupt him.

''But what? You decided to pour all the fucking milk and cereals on the ground? You're only 5, you have nothing to decide, you're just a kid. Gosh! Couldn't you wait for me to come back home?!'' I yelled and he started to cry.

Unbelieveable.

''Don't cry! Go watch TV, I'll clean this up and then make a breakfast.'' I say with voice lower than before.

After I cleaned the mess up, I ask ''What would you like to eat?''

''Are you actually gonna cook? Because I miss your cooking.'' Tasha asks.

''Yep. Anything you guys want to.'' I smile.

''Could you make pancakes with nutella and poured on top with chocolate syrup?'' Malik asks while wiping the tears from his face.