New York, Chicago

Chapter 10: It's just me, Erin

Intelligence has been working on the case 24/7. They are talking shifts outside of my door also.

It's usually just Burgess and Rowan, but after 12 hours, they always switch. I have seen Jay a few times, but I don't want to talk to anyone but Will.

Will honestly gets what I'm going through. I don't know how, or what he has gone through in his life, and I'm not going to ask, but he gets most of the stuff I'm dealing with and says the right things to help me out. Earlier this morning, firehouse 51 visited. Well, everyone but Kelly.

I didn't let that get me down though, I keep kicking and acted like everything was good, like I wasn't affected by what he was doing. My godfather, Matthew, and my godmother, Shay, stayed a little while longer with me.

Over the last few months, I've spent a lot of time with these two. We all go out and it's like that are my mom and dad.

Of course, they aren't dating, but they don't mind giving me an allusion of the three of us being a close family. We've taken many pictures together and I've seen so much.

Shay told me about this house that she inherited that's in the Calabasas. When she told me that she made me the owner of the house if anything was to happen to her, I couldn't believe it. I thanked her, but I also told her nothing was ever going to happen to her.

Matthew on the other hand, has a thing for Gabby Dawson and doesn't know how to handle it. He is so cheesy and weird when it comes to her.

Me and Shay have been trying to help him with asking her out, but he still needs a lot of practice.

Gabby and Matt are always nervous around each other. I know that Matt is on a break with Hailie right now, but I do wish that he and Gabby were together

When Hank arrives, Matthew and Shay leave. Every night, my grandpa comes in, and reads me a book like I'm 5 years old. I don't mind though, he never got to do this stuff with me, and I want him to experience it all.

"Well hello, my beautiful granddaughter" I can't help but smile at him "Hi grandpa, how was work today?"

He lets out a small sigh "That bad huh?" He just shakes his head and lets out a chuckle "it'll be better after I read you a book" I can't help but laugh at him.

Growing up, mom read me books all the time. I always loved how she animated them. But Hank, he goes another lever with how he animates the book. My uncle Justin brings by his son every night so we can bond.

And right on cue, Justin and his girlfriend walk in with my little buddy Daniel  "Hey guys!" We all get settled; me and Daniel are in the hospital bed, Justin and his girlfriend, Olive, are sitting in a chair, and grandpa is on the edge of the bed ready to tell our story for the night.

My grandpa never shows this side of himself outside of the people that are in the room. Al and Erin are always outside, the door to the room so closed, and the curtains are drawn. I didn't want anyone to see Hank Voight at his weakest, in his natural habitat of family.

"Tonight, grandpas going to read Corduroy" I clap my hands and my younger cousins together.

Thought out the book, we stop and admire the pictures. I look forward to this every night. After the book, everyone stayed a little while longer. After Justin, Olive, and Daniel left, me and grandpa talked for a little while longer.

Out of nowhere, we hear arguing "Stay right here princess" Grandpa leaves the room to see what is wrong "Can I help you?"

I'm not sure who he is talking to at first, until they get to arguing and I hear the man's voice "She's my daughter, I can see her when I want" of course, it's Kelly Severide

"You lost that right when you never came to see her, check up on her, or even ask about her! You probably don't even know why she's here! Get him out of here, NOW!"

I roll over on my side, facing the door, I act like I'm sleeping with when someone opens the door. "It's just me, Erin" I open my eyes and look at her "Hank went to go take care of something"

Knowing that the 'something' is Kelly, I can't help but feel torn. Do I want my grandpa to take care of it? Or do I want to see my dad?

I point to the chair "stay with me?" She nods her head and lays her body around the chair "I wasn't going to have it any other way kid"

For the rest of the night, Erin talked me to sleep. I won't sit here and say that I was beyond happy for it. Every woman who I ended up loving, left me in some way.

After J.J had her baby, she stayed in New Orleans with her husband. Jade left the BAU after a case ended up in the hospital.

April sold me for drugs, and she kept me away from my biological family. Olive, Olivia hurt me the most. She showed me love, compassion, and taught me to love myself.

In the end, she left too. She left me after she put me together. Olivia will always hurt the most. She was the one person I could count on no matter what. She was the closest thing to a mother I would ever have.

Getting close to Erin, Shay, Dawson, or Olive would all end the same way, but it's something I'm willing to have trauma for.