New York, Chicago

Chapter 12: I'll Scream bloody murder

The very next day, Reid is walking into my hospital room. "I talked to doctor Halstead and told him this is most likely Heather. I know this is going to sound stupid, and tiring, but, How are you feeling?" I completely break down and allow myself to crumble after hearing my brother's voice.

Reid slowly comes over and lays in the bed next to me. "Rei Rei, I feel like my whole world is falling apart and everything that I worked so hard on the last ten plus years is gone,"

"My mom and Noah are heading back to New York as we speak. Grandpa won't let me see my dad. And I don't know where my biological mother is, not that I want to know where she is anyway, but I just feel like everything we have been working so hard on the last 12 years was all for nothing."

I continue to explain everything that has happened in the last few days that lead up to him being called. Reid never stops me, he lets me get it all out, and then he starts to ask me questions. And of course, I answered him, truthfully.

Reid has been there for me when I had my back against the wall. He is the only person I talk to about my feelings. Yeah, I talk to everyone else at the BAU and my mom, but no one knows everything but Reid "You are very brave my Anna Banana, we are all right here for you, remember that"

Reid brought my speaker with him from Quantico. I quickly connect it to my phone and play The Neighbourhood. Daddy Issues is the first song to play after I hit shuffle. I can't help but laugh at that. I turn the speaker down to the lowest level.

"I saw Nurse April, she started to ask me questions about you; you know I had to go into Papa's role real quick" I lay out a small giggle at Reid's attempt to cheer me up.

Grandpa comes into the room about an hour later. I thought he was going to yell at us, but I guess my mom explained everything to him. This time around with my trauma seems different.

Heather usually leaves me completely shut off. Maybe I'm just ready to have another Heather, my problems always seem to fade when I'm going through it anyways.

I'm not sure why I'm being open, but I won't question it.

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The next morning, Reid has to leave pretty early to head back to the BAU. Giving me a big hug, Reid starts off our saying that we do whenever we leave each other "I love you" I smile into his chest and reply with "To the moon and back Rei Rei"

As Reid left, Suzie brought my breakfast. I give her a smile and dig into the scrambled eggs with a bacon sandwich on the side. Will comes in and looks at my stats this morning

"I had a nice conversation with Reid yesterday, I understand everything that is going on Elizabeth. You don't have to talk, we will find other ways to communicate with you sweetheart. I also understand that you feel the most comfortable with Reid and only talking to him, if you ever need time to call him, just tap something three times okay?"

I give Will a nod and finish up my food. I get out my laptop and start on my school work for this week. I decided on doing the work did the next two weeks, but my mind quickly wondered off to how Noah is doing today without me. I start to wonder if he even misses me or notices that I am gone from his life.

I feel the tears before I let out a silent cry. My monitor starts to go off and I feel myself having a panic attack.

Everything that I have worked so hard on the last few years is crumbling.

Reaching at my chest, I feel like there's something sitting on it. I start to feel dizzy and I grab onto the railing for support.

Maggie runs into my room and tries to talk to me "I want daddy, I- I- I want my dadd-" forming the sentence the best I can, I yell it out for anyone who is close by.

Sharon quickly, and calmly, rushes in and tries to get me to calm down. I hear many more voices. Grandpa left early this morning for a case so I know it's not him, but I want to know who it is. I can't put my finger on who the voice is, but I try to listen to the sound of their voice.

Running into my room comes Kelly Severide. I do the unthinkable and reach out for him. I allow for him to hold me close. Quickly grabbing me, he starts to calm me down, "Shh baby, calm down. I'm here, daddy's here princess. I'm not leaving you again"

I lean into Kelly's chest and take in his scent. Something to I do often to help me calm down. Kelly starts to sway us and pet my hair. I feel myself slowly start to calm down.

I hear my monitors start to go back to normal. Someone moves my laptop into the chair by my bedside. The two officers who are stationed outside are on the phone with someone, probably my grandfather.

But, I could care less about that. I had my dad in the room with me. And who knows when I will be able to see him again.

This is the first time since the firehouse that I have physically seen my dad. "Do you wanna talk about it?" I quickly shake my head no and continue to hold on to him for dear life.

When Matthew and Shay would come and sit with me, we only talked about him. It was mostly about how his day was- good or bad.

"How about I try to sing you one of my favorite songs?" I nod my head slowly and listen to his voice, "I'd climb every mountain, And swim every ocean. Just to be with you, And fix what I've broken. Oh, 'cause I need you to see; that you are the reason"

Humming the rest of the sing, Kelly tries to pull me out of his arms; but I'm too stubborn and I stay close to him. He can't help but to let out a hearty laugh "oh yeah, you're definitely my kid" I don't know why, but him saying that definitely made me feel like I've accomplished the hardest thing in the world.

Kelly stayed until he got a call from the firehouse. Sighing, I let go of the death grip I had in him and lay back on the bed.

"I'll come back later okay sweetheart?" I nod my head and give Kelly one more hug, taking in his scent one last time before he leaves the room.

Twenty minutes after Kelly left, bored strikes again. I put on my slippers and robe before venturing off into the halls of Chicago Med.

But, of course, my two patrol officers, Tony Smith, and Aaron Oatelli, won't let me leave the room. "You can move and follow me, or I'll scream bloody murder" giving my best and most innocent smile, I see the men look at me with fear in their eyes.

Quickly moving out of my way and never missing a step to keep up with me, I head off to the cafeteria. My officers on duty have my 'special' card given to them by my grandpa for whatever I want while I'm their care.

Upon entering the cafeteria and grabbing some food for myself, and getting some for my officers, we sit down at a table and eat in silence. I hate silence.

I quickly start to make a beat with my hand and hum a random tune. Tony catches on to this and puts my headphones over my ears and plays some FINNEAS for me. I send him a small smile and nod.

About halfway into eating my tuna sandwich and chips, I see doctor Charles heading my way. He asks go sit-downs and I give him a nod. He tries to talk to me, and I quickly get annoyed, which he notices'.

"Let me tell you something physic guy, I've been through so much shit in the first four years of my life even you would have PTSD if I told you about some of the stories. I know that most people would open up to you, but I'm not one of those. So, if you will excuse me, I will be eating the rest of my lunch in my private room, Have a nice day"

I scramble to gather my stuff. Aaron asks me if it's okay for him to take my tray, I give him a nod and follow close behind him to my room.

As much as I wanted to venture off and maybe see the outside, that just isn't possible with these assholes in Chicago.

Everyone is just too nosy for their own good. Will sends me a look as I leave the cafeteria. I guess he's going to talk to Dr. Charles.

I wish I was still in New York cause Chicago is starting to suck.