But I Still Want You | Jikook ✓

Chapter 12: I Dream of You

Jimin

"Are you scared of death?"

I look to a fuzzy figure as I await their answer. They exhale slowly, biting their lip. "I'm scared of missing out and leaving you, Minnie."

The imaginative figure laughs brokenly as I lean into them. These dreams have been occurring for a little while now, but they're still relatively new. They serve as my coping mechanism with my current situation. The more I try and shape the world, the more I am able to pretend that I'm with Jungkook and that I am not cursed to love while being unloved.

Closing my eyes, I try to take control of the dream until I'm confident. When my eyes open, I'm faced with Jungkook. He smiles at me, his nose scrunched up cutely as his big brown eyes look at me like I'm something worth it.

He makes me feel beautiful.

"Jungkook," I whisper.

"Yes, Minnie?"

I lean in unconsciously, wanting to take my chance because this is all I have. "May I kiss you?"

The ends of his hair turn pink as he blushes and I giggle as he leans in. But the closer we get, the more my heart starts to hurt. I'm being pushed away by some indescribable force while Jungkook and I reach for each other. It's not fair. Can I not even have my dreams to be happy?

An invisible hand grabs me and pulls me away from dream Jungkook as he starts to morph and become fuzzy and unrecognizable again. Broken, I sob, wishing I could be happy with him.

"Jimin! Jimin, wake up!"

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"Jungkook?" My eyes open as the hand turns into arms wrapping tighter around me. He's holding me. He pulled me out of my dream. But why?

He looks me over, putting a handkerchief to my nose to sop up the blood. "Jimin, why were you in here? It's dangerous? You could've... you could've..." He clenches his eyes shut and exhales shakily. "This room isn't for you, okay? I gave you this one rule for a reason. I was just trying to protect you. This was my one wish. Why did you go against it?"

"I-I'm sorry for not following your orders," I cry, shaking where I stand. "Please don't be mad at me."

Jungkook continues cleaning up my blood with a worried look on his face. "Did you open the door while I was gone?"

"N-No." I wheeze and Jungkook opens my mouth and looks down my throat before examining my neck.

"You just coughed up blood. Don't talk." He puts his head to my chest to listen to my heartbeat.

I just stare at him. "Jungkook, I feel fi—"

His gaze is deadly and I quickly shut up. He moves his ear slightly. "Breathe when I tell you."

Scared, I follow his directions as he listens to my lungs and my heart multiple times. He handles me gently, but his grip on me is firm, as if he's afraid that I'll slip away. His eyes are desperate and he keeps checking everything on me. Brown eyes look into mine and he looks like he's on the verge of tears. "Jimin... god, Jimin... I was so scared. My heart stopped. I thought things would re—I'm just glad you're alive and breathing." He buries his face in my neck.

He is confusing me, so I back away as soon as I can gather the strength. "Jungkook, what's going on? Shouldn't you be more mad at me? Aren't you going to fire me?"

"No, never. You live here. You can stay forever." He tries to close the gap, but I maintain the distance, making him frown.

"Forever?"

Jungkook nods and I allow him to wrap himself around me like a safety blanket. He rocks us gently, singing to me quietly. I don't know if it's a spell or not because I can't understand what he's saying, but for some reason, I feel happier and safer because of it. Jungkook is my safe place. I wonder if I will ever be his.

Slowly, Jungkook moves his head to make eye contact with me. "Never touch that door, Jimin, or even try it. Your mortal body will die."

"Why does it even matter? I'm all old anyway." I frown.

"It matters because I need you, Jimin. I see the value in you." He pauses, pushing my bangs out of my face. "If you die, I die too."

Author's Note: A short update. I apologize, but I will publish the next chapter along with this one! Please read both chapters.

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-BBM