As we fall

Cant give you my heart if shes got hold of it

Hayden's POV
I'm struggling with my classes, haven't been sleeping through the night and I can't even eat... what the fuck is up with my emotions lately? I feel like a zombie with literally no excitement of my usual life.. it's been seven days since I've met the girl of my dreams, dreams that I didn't even know I was dreaming... seven long days... I'm interrupted by my thoughts with a knock outside my dorm room. I walk over to open the door, oh.. hey Kim what are you doing here?

Wow it's nice to see you too Hayden and do I honestly need a reason to come to my boyfriends dorm?? Also why the fuck haven't u answered any of my calls or text huh? She yells at me frantically literally trying to blurt all her fucking words at once.

Woah.. you need to chill the fuck out I can't deal with your bitch fit right now. I snap.

Well just tell me what's going on with you Hayden your so different this past week and honestly I'm not sure I like the change. She says with worry clear in her eyes.

To be honest I really don't know... I'm kinda confused about things.. well.. life in general. I take a deep breath to continue, I. I just.. I don't know what i want anymore okay i just need some space! I end up shouting my words at the end in frustration.

Space? What the hell Hayden do not tell me you are trying to break up with me? She laughs and twirling her blonde strand of hair while stating the obvious.

Yeah' actually I am.. if you don't wanna consider it as us breaking up then that's cool I guess but I need some time to think. I say while trying not to be an asshole.

Time? Time for what Hayden? Time for you to fuck other people because your finally bored of me the way all my friends warned me that you would? She ask with watery eyes.

I don't know what you want me to say, I respond. I just want you to be honest with me! She yells. Okay there's someone else! I snap.
Someone else? Are you fucking kidding me? You've been going behind my back and cheating with some bimbo!!?
No it's not like I've only seen her once well twice if you include the mall and we mostly talked in the movie theater parking lot. I respond.
Mostly talked? She ask with sarcasm clearly in her voice.
Ehh.. yea.. and we kissed. I say with a nervous whimper.
Shes quite too quite... probably coming up with ways she can murder me without getting caught, You said you saw her at the mall? She ask while interrupting my thoughts and finally breaking the awkward silence. Ehh yeah. I respond. So it was the girl in the red dress wasn't it?
Yeah... I say weakly.
Well I'm willing to forget all about this and forgive you Hayden because I love you and I've already planned our futures together, we're moving in together after we graduate your gonna become my hot shot lawyer and I'm gonna be your beautiful news reporter, we're gonna be happy get married at 27 and have 2 beautiful children by the time we're 35, just give me your heart and stop being so stubborn you can't fight the inevitable. She says with sass.

How can I give you my heart if She has already taken it... and those are the only words I respond with.
With that being said she takes a deep breath while looking me in the eyes and says, You'll get bored of her too once you loose interest, and walks out the door.