As we fall

Its like losing a limb

Mia's POV
It's been a week since I've received that video that made my heart burst from my chest.

I've been ignoring every single call and text from Hayden, I understand he was hurt about everything that went down but that gave him no excuse to cheat.

My thoughts are interrupted with a knock at my door, Mia? Can I come in?

I go to open the door and let Sam in.

Hey.. are you okay?

No not really...

Mia I hate seeing you like this you look terrible.

Thanks Sam your the best.. I say with sarcasm.

Have you spoke to him yet?

No and I don't plan to he hurt me and it's over!

Your clearly not over him girl like seriously when's the last time you even showered? Your mom told me you been in this room all week.

Of course I'm not over him it's only been a week! I just need time to wollow in my sadness..

Well you know how your parents are leaving town tomorrow to celebrate there 25year anniversary?

Yeah! And?

And... I've made plans for us to party!

Nope I'm so not up for partying..

Come on Mia it will get you out of this funk your stuck in. Please... she presses.

Fine! What's the plan?

Well I met this guy yesterday and he invited me to a frat party. He said they get hella crazy and we'd miss out on a lot of fun if we didn't show. He assured me to bring my girls.. you and molly are my only girls so...

Fine whatever sounds fun. I say agreeing to go.

Okay but you have to dress hot so let's go shopping! She screams in excitement while pulling me by my wrist and guiding me out of the bed to get myself ready.

Molly, Samantha and I leave the house in a Uber after I showered and let makeup and blow dried hair bring me back from the dead.

As we tried on hundreds of outfits and talked mad shit about Hayden for a couple hours we finally find 3 prefect outfits for the party. 3 very revealing outfits might I add..

As I look in the full body mirror of my whole outfit, I suddenly feel nervous about this..
you guys are you sure this isn't too much? It's kinda short don't you think???

No you are killing the color red bitch you look sexy as hell. Sam assures me.

Yeah girl I usually never agree with Sam but you look hot! Molly complements with laughter.

After coming home from the mall we chilled in my room watching riverdale on Netflix till 12:30am and the girls parents finally picked them up.

I decide on taking a long exfoliating / shaving everything type of shower, which usually takes an hour since I also have to step out of the shower every 5 minutes to skip the add on YouTube that's playing my music.
I finish changing into my pink satin Victoria secret pjs.. there so comfy against my freshly shaven legs.

I'm at peace in my bed while watching another episode of riverdale.. jughead is so handsome.. my thoughts and fantasies of cole sprouse are interrupted by a knock at my window, I jump in fear as I glance up and let out a breath when I realize it's Hayden.

I go to open the window before he falls off my roof.

Hayden what are you doing here? I ask harshly.

I need to talk to you Mia I know what I did was totally fucked up.. but.. I'm going through a really hard time right now... he says nervously.

He takes a step towards me and I take two steps back,,,  I chuckle a huff before speaking,  you've been going through a hard time?? Really Hayden??? Am I the one that cheated on you? I say with a dead ass serious tone.

I was not in my right mind baby I was fucked up, he tries to explain but I interrupt,,,

Don't call me baby I'm not your baby!

Silly girl,  don't you know you will always be mine.. Hayden assures me with a smirk.

You can't even be serious for a second can you? Hayden please just go.. I say weekly.

You can seriously say you don't miss me baby girl... he says with sad eyes.  Which sends the butterflies back to my stomach instantly, but I have to stay strong he really broke my trust.

I do miss you Hayden but I plan on getting over it honestly. I admit harshly.

Get over it? What the fuck, so just like that you wanna get over me and forget everything we have together! He says with arrogance as if the break up is my fault.

Wait you think this is easy for me? I'm heartbroken, today is the first day I left the room since I saw that video, I've been a zombie only walking out of my cave to grab a carton of ice cream out of the freezer cause that's all I even have the apitite to eat lately... hmm I really wonder why.. I say sarcastically,   I've been feeling angry, sad even ugly because you choose to have sex with another girl that's obviously a victory secrets model in her near future, I can bet money on that. And mostly I feel loss a lot of loss.. like I've not only lost a person in my life but like I lost a whole part of me... like I lost a whole fucking limb from my body! A very important one like an eye ball or a fucking tongue because it would be pretty hard to see with one eye and I cant imagine my life without tasting my food... I finally get through blabbering my long ass confession and let out a long sigh..

Mia pia look at me baby, I'm right here your not losing me your pushing me away.

I'm pushing you away for good reasons Hayden! I'm sorry I can't get rid of the image of you and her... together.. it just keeps replaying in my mind,  I don't know wether I can get over  it or not and to be honest you've lost my trust.. I say with tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably.

He moves closer to wipe them away and I back up slowly,,, Hayden please just go.. I say weekly.

Okay... I understand I'll give you your space, I'm still happy I got to see your face and hear your voice.. even though your in a bitchy mood it still made my whole fucking week better instantly.. damn.. good night princess sweet dreams... he says while climbing out the window and leaving me alone, back to my peace..