As we fall

Tempers rising

Hayden's POV

Hayden! No I'm not ready to have sex, she backs away from me nodding her head in disapproval.

Why! Because your saving yourself for marriage right! I say waiting for her to answer with my glaring eyes and harsh ass tone.

Yes I am is it really that bad that I'm saving myself for my husband! She fires the words at me like bullets.

So you obviously don't see me becoming your husband then because if you were so fucking sure you love me you would give yourself to me to prove it!  But hey maybe saving yourself is a good idea cause it sounds like you met your future husband tonight,   Let him fuck you cause I'm done giving a shit! I snap at her and climb out of her bedroom window before she says anything else to make me yell and wake up the whole god damned house with my anger that's begging to let out at any giving second.
I jump off the roof with out the bother of climbing her asshole fathers truck, and my angry adrenaline sets off a perfect landing as I continue the walk back towards my car,  assaulting a brick mailbox with my fist on the way.

Driving with bloody knuckles shaky hands and what feels like a 10 ton brick on my fucking chest I'm desperate to get my mind off shit.

I decide to pop in the frat party to drink away this shit feeling.

I'm greeted by mark once I entered the front door along with a few more people from the usual crew, we share a few social words then I go to sit on the sofa where I see 2 full bottles of vodka and a couple of stoners smoking weed from a bong.  Perfect I say as I get comfortable in my seat next to them.

Bro you gotta hit this... one of the stoners say while passing me the tip of the bong, I gladly take it as I'm feeling pretty fucking rebellion tonight.

I press it between my lips and inhale deeply.

Woah dude your about to get fucked! The other stoner says exaggerating.

I let out the breath coughing harshly finding it hard to catch my breath as the big cloud of smoke leaves my lungs and fills the room, blurring my vision even more.
Oh shit I guess he wasn't exaggerating I really am fucked.... I think to myself as I try to gather my thoughts and taking one more smaller hit.

Second hit handled like a pro! I say to the stoners while pouring 3 shots and trying to hide my embarrassment by my bitch like reaction to the bong.

An hour has gone by and I'm 8 shots in and still have the strong weed in my system, I'm on cloud 9 right now literally.
I know my actions of getting high and drunk ain't the best choices I coulda made but I have to admit I feel so fucking good right now despise the shit day I've had.

I spot Kim in the crowd as she pushes through people to get to me.

Hey stranger. She smirks sitting next to me.

What up Kim?

Oh same old same old really, studying and school and what not.
Anyways... since when do you hang out with the stoners. She says chuckling.

Since my mind became a raging pit of fire from being over emotional.. I swear I have 20 different personality's sometimes cause my feeling switches from happy, sad, desperate, in love, angry,  exiting, care free to caring way too much. I blabber through my words. Shit weed really does put you into deep conversation mode.

She reaches over and puts her hand on my thigh and squeezes,, come up stairs with me ill clear your mind, she whispers in my ear and bites my neck while pulling away and standing to her feet.

She starts walking upstairs and the anger inside of me and the hard on from this rare high is telling me to follow her and I do just so.

I wake up to the beaming sun on my face,  my head is throbbing and I still feel dizzy trying to collect my thoughts,  finally realizing I'm in a strangers bed with Kim's blonde hair draped on the pillow next to me.

Fuck,  fuck,, what did I do! I say in distress while searching for my clothes which are scattered over the floor.

Hayden come back to bed. Kim says tiredly.

What the fuck Kim are you seriously gonna act like we aren't broken up and I don't have a girlfriend that I've moved on with?

Hmmm you wasn't acting like that last night! She fires, and her words is like gas to my flame.

I was high, drunk and completely out of my mind I don't even remember fucking you so take it from there! I yell

Well you did so..

So... what.. it meant nothing Kim this changes nothing between us you shouldn't have thrown yourself at me while I was feeling completely zoned the fuck out! I scream and run out of the house still full with sleeping party guest all over.

I check my phone to see 10 missed calls and 5 text messages all from Mia.   Shit I really fucked up.

I dial her number quickly and she picks up on the last ring.

What do you want? She answered with anger clear in her voice.

Baby listen I'm so sorry I freaked out last night I was acting so stupid and letting my anger get the best of me. I try to explain.

Really? So are you sorry for fucking Kim too! She screams through the phone and shocks the shit out of me over the fact that she'd already found out.

What? How did you..

She sent me a fucking video of her riding you Hayden.. from your phone! I thought it was your way of getting back at me from the fight we had but looks like you weren't even planning to tell me that you cheated on me!

Don't call me anymore it's over!

No! No baby wait please.  The beep let's me know she's ended the call  after saying the harshes words In the softest tone, didn't stop the fact that they cut through me like a knife and left me gasping for breath.