Safe Word

Chapter 20- Starting the Process

HAPPY DECEMBER!!! *All I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU INTENSIFIES*

*SMILING TYLER ABOVE*

10-15-2020

Tyler's POV

I'm having such a hard time falling asleep. Even with Spencer's calming aura wrapped around me, the past few days have been replaying in my mind. Spencer told me he loved me... like he actually love's me. I smile to myself as I start to trace shapes on his hand and arm that is protectively wrapped around me. That confession meant the world to me, especially after I opened up to him after I got home from school. I was completely vulnerable, exposing myself to him and he chose that moment to tell me that he is never leaving my side. 

But I am worried about the day coming that I need my sleep for. Spencer called his friend who is a psychologist and made a 'emergency appointment' for today. In the past I have not had the best experiences with psychologists. Dr. Dobair just prescribed me medication and sent me off, most of the same with the rest of them that Jackson and Luke would try out for me.

But Spencer has a good feeling about this one, and he told me that he would stay by my side if I want him to be there with me, and depending on the situation I think that having him in there with me will be nice. But there is the worry that since he is a dominant that he will think different of me, if my past does need to come up in greater detail. 

But I really don't think that is the kind of person that Spencer is. Spencer has proven time and time again that he is caring. He has told me that as we progress that his expectations of me will grow and he will not be as lenient as he has been with me over the time we've known each other. But I think that when the time is right I'll be able to handle anything that is thrown my way.

But right now I need to get to sleep, because I have a feeling that me on no sleep going to my first therapy session is not going to end well for anyone, especially me. 

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"Baby" I hear whisper in my ear sending shivers down my spine. I have finally fallen asleep but it seems like it must be time to get up. I need more sleep though. I groan and pull the covers over my head, hearing Spencer chuckle. "Baby it's time to get up" he says, pulling the covers down. I groan again and turn so that I'm on my stomach, trying to make him let me sleep.

"Ohhhh baby I don' think you want to do that" He chuckles. I feel his hand start to trace shapes on my back and I sigh in relief, maybe he'll let me fall back asleep again. "Such a nice round ass right in front of me" He says still tracing around my back. "It would be a shame if..." He stops and I feel a hard slap on my ass causing me to yelp and to sit up quickly. He just spanked me!

"Good morning sleepy pup" He says and gently wraps his hand around my neck and brings me in for a kiss.

 "Good morning" I mumble still in my tired state. Spencer smiles at me I lean my head against his shoulder, and close my eyes trying to earn just a little more sleep.

 "You look tired baby, what time did you get to bed" He asks running his hand up and down my back. 

"I didn't" I groan, lightly banging my head against his shoulder. I get so grumpy when I don't get enough sleep and I can already tell that this is going to be one of those days. If I need to talk about my past there is no saying what is going to come out of my mouth. 

"Aww, Tyler what kept you awake? You and I got into bed at the same time why didn't you wake me up" Spencer asks and I scoff looking at him in my tired state.

"If you woke me up in the middle of the night saying you couldn't sleep I would not be able to say in good confidence that I would be happy Spencer" I mumble and he smirks at me.