Hueningkai's POV
(Possible trigger warning)
Kai dashed through the halls. His heart felt like it was on fire. Smoke seemingly filled his lungs and slowly choked him from the inside.
Salty tears burned his cheeks. He wiped them off.
In the corner of his eyes he saw a restroom. He ran inside and closed the door.
And then he collapsed.
He weeped all alone, only the toilets hearing his cries of pain.
He covered his face with one hand and covered his heart with his other hand. His heart hurt to see Soobin knocked out on the floor.
Soobin, practically my brother, is unconscious! This is like my nightmare, except it's real!!
Hueningkai curled up into a ball and cried harder. His body shook with sobs. He didn't even care that he was on the crusty bathroom floor.
If I was with Soobin earlier then I could've saved him!
If only I was by his side like a loyal friend!
If only I was fast enough to save him!
The image of Soobin laying on the floor flooded Hueningkai's mind. He thought about the blood dripping from Soobin's forehead, his skin looking pale, and the chandelier shards poking his skin.
Now look what you've done, Soobin is knocked out on the floor!
Hueningkai let out a jagged breath.
He hated all those times Soobin got hurt and not him.
Why couldn't it be me? Why Soobin?? He did nothing wrong! He doesn't deserve this!!
Hueningkai dizzily stood up. He walked up to the mirror and looked at his reflection.
Dark eyebags were visible under his eyes. Fresh tears glistened in his eyes and on his cheeks. Snot ran down his nose from all the crying. His hair was unruly from all the running.
I look like a mess.
Hueningkai let out a shaky breath. His throat burned and everything just felt numb.
This is all your fault!
Soobin doesn't deserve me.
Once Hueningkai starts thinking of something that makes him cry, he thinks of other things that make him cry.
As the seconds passed, Hueningkai got even more sad.
More tears fell rolled down his face, falling onto the cold floor.
He reached into his hoodie pocket and pulled out a small blade.
No, this wasn't his personal blade. He gave his blade to Arya so that he wouldn't touch it.
He found this new blade in the warehouse. At first Kai only wanted to use it for self defense, but now things have taken a turn.
I thought my habit would FINALLY be gone. Clearly, I'm wrong.
Kai bit his lip, letting his tears fall.
Arya's going to be frustrated when she finds out. She's gonna be soooo disappointed in me.
Just that thought alone broke his heart. He didn't want to disappoint anyone, he hated that.
The image of Arya hugging him clouded Kai's mind.
She was proud of me for stopping my habit..... not anymore.
More sobs racked his body.
I'm so sorry Arya....
Kai slid the blade across his arm. Pain seared up his arm. Kai embraced it.
I deserve it.
The blood trickled down his arm. The crimson color of the blood stood out on his pale arm.
Kai let his tears fall. He hated that he couldn't save his friend. He hated how he disappointed and gave himself false hope.
I really thought I could let go of my addiction that easily.
At that moment the door slammed open. Arya, Beomgyu, Yeonjun, Jungkook, Taehyung, Jimin, Namjoon, Hoseok, and Yoongi stood at the door, all their eyes wide open in horror.
Kai froze. His mind went haywire.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, this must be a dream. IT HAS TO BE A DREAM!!
Everyone crowded around Hueningkai.
Hueningkai heard voices, a lot of voices, but he didn't pay attention to it. His mind was too busy freaking out.
The blade slowly slipped from his grip and fell on the floor.
Kai's knees felt very weak, he couldn't look at everyone's disappointed faces, so he collapsed on the floor, crying.
It was the only thing he felt like doing.
Crying is how your heart speaks when your lips can't explain the pain you're feeling.
Hueningkai really couldn't explain to everyone what they just saw. It was just too much to explain.
He buried his head into his hands and cried.
They all found out my secret.
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