Always Yours

Three- Sophia

The fact that Oliver had already left when I finally woke up the next morning kind of bothered me. I mean, it would've been nice if he said goodbye at least. Especially since he said I would get to wake up to him. Is this going to be the normal for him if we were to move in together? Ugh. That reminds me of the decision I am going to have to make soon. I can't keep him waiting that long if he has a place in mind already. I'm not thrilled with the idea of having to give up MY apartment. I have worked my ass off to afford this amazing space that is only a few blocks from Central Park. It's a perfect location- I can go for runs through the park and I am not far from transportation at any time of the day or night. I was never used to having my own things growing up, so I am hesitant about giving it up.

I grew up with only my mom providing for my sister and I. She did everything she could to make sure we had everything we needed, but we didn't have any luxurious things-which we were honestly fine with. I usually wore my sister's hand-me-down clothes- luckily, she always took care of her items and they felt "new" to me. Very rarely did we have anything that was actually new, and our house was definitely not the biggest. This only made me work twice as hard in school. I knew my mom wouldn't be able to afford to pay for my schooling, so I put in the work and graduated at the top of my class. I received a full ride to NYU and once I graduated college, Charlotte, Gianna and I hustled to get our business started.

After a few years of really hard work and living with the girls, I was able to obtain this apartment. It is the first thing that is truly all mine. Because of this, it is really hard for me to agree to let it go. I guess I can't really live here my whole life though. If I get married someday, I'd most likely have to move into a bigger place than my one-bedroom apartment. I just don't think I am quite ready.

I think I need to go for a run and clear my head. I'll have to make sure I get the girls' opinions on the possible move tomorrow when we get together at our office. I know damn well that Gianna will give me her honest thoughts, I chuckle to myself. After putting my sports bra, leggings and running shoes on, I grab my headphones and head towards the park. Time for me to run from my problems for a little bit.

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Before I know it, it's already Thursday and I am supposed to have dinner and drinks with the girls tonight. Like I expected, Gianna didn't hold back earlier this week when I told them both about Oliver's suggestion. I knew she would not be a fan of the idea, but she agreed that we would talk it out more when we all met up outside of the office. We all had visits with some new vendors and follow up meetings with clients this whole week, so we really didn't have enough time to focus on discussing my personal life.

After we were done at the office, the girls and I grab a cab to the restaurant together. We ended up at a local Mexican place so that we could have some good food and margaritas. I'm definitely going to need some margaritas to survive the interrogation I am about to go through; I chuckle to myself.

Gianna at least holds back until the drinks are in front of us. " So, are you actually considering moving in with him? Like truly considering it?" She asks. "Well, I mean I owe it to him to at least think about it. It would be the next step in our relationship, and we HAVE been together for over a year now," I retort. "But is this actually what you want to do?" Charlotte quickly adds in before Gianna could say anything else. I sit there for a moment. I have been thinking very hard about this all week so far. "Honestly... I truly have no idea. I am not sure if I am ready to give up my apartment just yet. You guys know how hard I worked to get it." They both nodded. "I just really don't want to see you settle in Life, Soph. You are such an amazing woman and I feel like he dims your shine in a way," Gianna starts, "I think he doesn't leave enough time for you in life and I know you say you're okay with it, but you've never actually had someone really make you their top priority." "Gi, I don't expect to be someone's top priority. Careers are an important part of life and he has a demanding job. He makes time for me when he can, which is all I can really expect." "Soph..." I turn towards Charlotte as she starts to talk, "Are you truly happy with him?" she genuinely asks.