Feelings

11

"I appreciate it Chanhee, I really do, but it's kinda too late. The damage has been done."

"Yeah, I get that. One apology isn't going to make up for years' worth of misery. What even happened to you in the last few years?"

"I went down a really bad path. Starting drinking first. I wanted to be mature and thats what I thought to do first. Then I started going to parties and that was when I started doing drugs. I only started smoking a few months ago since I had cut back on the drinks and drugs and needed something else that could keep my mind off of everything."

"Oh. Its getting pretty late, I should probably go before my parents get worried and you're late to see Younghoon."

"Yeah."

"Oh, and Sunnie?"

"Yeah?"

"You're wrists are showing." And then he was gone.

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Sunwoo wasn't confused by what Chanhee said. He knew exactly what the older boy meant. You see, Sunwoo had a very bad tendency to do something not-so-good.

Sunwoo used to cut himself. He started off at 15, after everything with Chanhee happened. He wanted to take away as much pain as possible, and he had successfully found a way to do that- but not without scaring himself in the process.

Just like some of his old addictions, this one managed to fade its way out. Sure, there was an every once in a while thing, but he couldn't really help that. It kind of just stuck with him. But he had a huge question that had been looming on his mind recently.

Why was Choi Chanhee finding out about his secrets?

No one else knew. Not Eric, or Haknyeon, or Kevin, or anyone for that matter. Why all of a sudden, was Chanhee finding out?

It was like the universe was completely against him.